subjected 2 public humiliation

NEWSFLASH!! Gal gets humiliated in public concert. Jz so u noe, i'm 2 perform in a concert organised by da music sch i go 2. dun ask y.... but i'll haf u noe.... it goes down in history as 1 of de most embarassin things i haf ever had 2 do. gosh! n we haf 2 dance a sorta lame dance in between playin. after i jz got ova d mortification of havin 2 dance, here dey go askin us 2 wear tacky lookin masks as a... cheap ploy. lame-O!!!! whoever who planned da program obviously went a lot overboard! n it's jz, LAme... DA WHOLE THING'S A PUBLIC HUMILIATION to me, n if dey wud like 2 noe, every1 too. it's jz too tacky, too kinky. i guess, da best thing's 2 get it ova n done with as quickly as possible. n hope dat i nvr see any1 i noe at da concert. help me get outta dis sum1!!!

on a cheerfuller note (mine, dat is) can't wait 2 see those pfs-ians freshly shaved heads in tuition 2moro n throughout da week. well, well, well.... wun it be a pleasure (n a HUGE source of entertainment) 4 me as well as de others. MUAHAHAHAHA!!!!

CNY woes. bleaugh

CNY is comin... u wud think i wud be tremendously excited n yayy-ing away. ok, dat's a silly way 2 start dis. i'll restart.

*ahem* CNY is dis sat. n guess who's very enthusiastic abt it? yea, i noe... weird gal! she's unhappy abt a festival, let alone DE festival. chinese new yr... chinese rite? yeah... my frens cudden understand either. well, 4 those who dun noe... let me clue u in on wut i do on a typical CNY. my grans r well... u noe elders... there's hardly in their tradition (n dat's y it's called a tradition), so, it's really a no -brainer thing 2 recount it. since, i've been doin it since always. wtv.
so... on CNY , we...
1. haf reunion dinner at my grans place (always steamboat wiv crabclaw, vegs n sum otha thingies) de adults will sit at 1 table, n we young ciku's a smaller table.
2. sit thru borin sessions wiv relatives i wudden noe if i passed dem on da street (some of dem). dey alwiz say da same thing... " wah! u've grown so big/ tall/ pretty (it varies) n dis is da most hated part of cny 2 me. de onli consolation is dat we get ang pows. quite a gud 1, considerin da discomfort.
3. eat goodies.. dis is quite a gud part . i like all da food.
4. sleep late. ok, dis is gud too. i alwiz luv my sleep.
5. are expected 2 serve guests n look like we enjoy it. at least i dun.

well, mebbe u dun see y i dun like it so much. but it's jz a habitual, once a yr torture 4 me 2 go thru dis, but persevere... it's onli 4 a few days in a yr. i can do it. i can do it!!

BACK!!!

omgosh!! i tot i wud go crazee from nt bloggin 4 like, i dunno... 2 weeks!!! i MISS you sosososo much blog! i think by nt postin anythin 4 sucha long time, i'll prob haf lost half, if nt all of my readers... OII... i'm bac... so, u can cum bac too.

ahh... bac at last... n wiv ntg 2 say. sigh* oh, where am i now? sittin amidst pile n rubble, nt 2 mention lots n lots of wires strewn around everywhere. dust, dirt, sand.... well, lt's jz say it's nt exactly da cleanest place in da world. n if u think i'm in a war zone... think again. jz in my hs where we're renovatin. big mess here.

happenins... happenins... can't think of much tho... dis past few weeks haf been abt co-curriculum activities, bla,bla,bla... u noe.. all dat. n yeah! it's GREAT bein da oldest in da sch (teacher's nt included). i mz say, havin ppl look up 2 u n r kindof like awed wen u notice dem (ok, maybe it doesn't happen 2 me) is realli, how d u say it, awesome..! n now, everybody's like, " wut r u thinkin of doin nxt time??" or, "wen's da edu fair??" wether we like it or not, we ARE growin up. i'll miss my wacky bunch of friends wen we split up n go our seperate ways after f5. but rite now... i'm goin 2 enjoy every enjoyable second wiv dem b4 we part. n yes, i noe... we've been thru dis b4 so, let's nt get started again.

study... tension... stress... study... future

altho it's jz da 1st week of sch... TENSION man!! da 1st thing ppl think of wen dey start sch (err... da F5's ler, dat is) is dat dreaded thing at de end of da yr which cannot be named. haha... ok fine, so wut if i'm exaggeratin a lil'... XP. o yea.. n as i was sayin, it's been onli da 1st week of sch... of Jan... of da yr 2006... and every1's already startin their revision n stress is buildin up. yea, includin me. jz thinkin abt all da studyin, tuition, midnite oil burnin is enuf 2 scare me silly. but den, wen u think abt it, ppl haf came out of de exam hall unscathed n unhurt... so, i guess i might jz survive it. hey, it's easier said den done k!!! esp wen u dun wanna look stupid wiv onli a few A's wen ur unbelievably (n sumtimes sickeninly... um... dun hurt me 4 sayin dis yea) SMART frens r gettin strings n scores of A1's ya noe... yea.. so wut if i'm damn kiasu? huh? huh?
well... *laughingly** all in da unwholesome name of crammin, jammin n stuffin ur grey matter wiv "useless", n borin facts dat prob won't help u in da near-far future in contrary 2 wut dey say. oh... in otha words... de all unmighty STUDY. yupp... n u didn't hear it from me.

growin up.

it's da start of a new yr n yep... u guessed rite...it's schtime! love it or hate it (haha... in my case...da latter), u gotta do wut u gotta do. dat is, balik ke sekolah; back 2 sch. well, i guess i can pretty much say dat dis yr'll be more umm.. meaningful cos well, it might be my last actual sch yr. college n uni r NOT actualli considered sch. hey, is it me, or haf i sed all dis b4 during my rant & rave sessions abt sch? wtvrrr.... here're no Fsixers in my sch so, technically... da f5's r de oldest in da sch (excludin teachers, mind u). dat's old.... i nvr imagined myself as a f5. i noe, inoe... 4 those who've passed dat stage n gotten their rites of passage, in other words, drivin license.. u might think "wutla... y is dis gal makin sucha big fuss abt turnin 17 (soon, soon) " . but 4 me, i'm still tryin 2 find myself n where i stand. u noe... jz think n reflect dat ...well... i AM growin up. oh.. shutup alredi... i wun tok abt it anymore. try to.

btw, HAPPY EARLY B'DAY JOSEPH!!! hope u read dis.

things i nvr tot i'd learn at sch

oh man... sch's startin in less then a week. nonono... n where did my hols fly to? come nxt yr, n i'll be startin da hardest (think 3 words >>> SPM) n also my last yr (dat is, if i decide nt 2 go 4 F6). but b4 i start bein all nostalgic... honestly, wut haf i been learnin all dis yrs dat i was in sch?? maths,bio, english, science, bm.... n da list goes on. u wud noe, u went 2 sch too. but, wud abt da lessons u nvr learnt? i mean, 'officially' leart? in n also out of de torture chamber we call a classroom (ok, it's nt all dat bad as i make it sound).

things da teacher nvr taught me in school...

1. rollin in da grass in da field has serious consequences.
i did it once wiv my frens n regretted it da minute i got home. ITCHES all over!!! trust me, u
wun wanna try it unless ur life depended on it. n u tot i was dis clean, no-nonsense gal eh?
guess i'm more down 2 earth den u think. hehe.

2. nvr try 2 mix too many things durin a science experiment.
in F2 i think, durin a protein, karbo, lemak n wut not experiment... we..we,we mixed all of our 'bahan eksperimen' together after finished conductin dat experiment. it's quite disgustin, sure u wanna hear it? so, anyway, we mixed eggs (protein), butter (fat) n all de rest (can't realli rmb) 2getha wiv millon, iodin n benedict n heated it up. *gag* it was realli disgustin n cudden be washed off later. of cos... we got an earful from our teach after dat. oh well... all in da name of learnin.

3. playin wiv fire burns holes in ur pocket
dis didn't happen 2 me personally, but i was fortunate (or was it unfortunate) enuff 2 witness my friend burn her uniform. err... tiny hole la. well, we were alwiz so bored durin science class, so most of da time, we wud be smugglin matches from da teacher's table 2 play wiv dem. dat fateful day, my fren got a lil excited n sumhow managed 2 burn a hole near her pocket. n da best part was dat she didn't even realise it! dat was real lawak but we still continued 2 play wiv fire (literally) throughout da whole yr without teacher knoein... muahahaha.

4. how 2 make fruit juices from scratch, sell em n make a HUGE profit... no matter wut
y fruit juices?? cos my class has been makin fruit juices 4 canteen day ever since f2. n we're gud at it. we made da most profit da yr b4 last n de yr b4 dat. while i DO noe how 2 make da drinks, wut i value da most was da experience i got sellin n promotin our merchandise eventho it was disgustin (which da ice-cream was after a few hours outta da fridge) or too expensive. hey... now dat i think of it... sch has made an entrepreanur outof me. whoa...

5. jobs of a labourer? been there done dat.
u see, since my sch is an all-girls sch... we gals r (again, literally) da movers n shaker's of da sch. not an enviable job i assure u. lolx.... tho i prob wun be any1's idea of a mover, i've had my fair share (n a lotta of other peep's share) of movin furniture abt sch. carryin benches, tables, chairs... yupe, done it. i guess, wen it comes down 2 this, it's teamwork dat i've learnt... or da lack of it in sum of my friends (pardon me) who dissappear at da mere sound of work.

6. leadership
y do i detect a slight bend 2 da serious side now? but, i guess it mz be said. sumhow, n i'm tryin not 2 be big headed here ok... sumhow... da teaches alwiz think i'm fit 4 responsibility. since std1, i've been either de monitor, asst monitor, prefect (short stinct onli), canteen pre, prez of sum club, in charge of dis, in charge of dat... i told u i'm not tryin 2 boast or anythin. now, not so much de ler... nt as popular as i was *blushin* . so, yeah... i guess i bloom under leadership. i like power, bossin ppl around so 2 speak. n well, wen ur in dat position, u can't help but learn sumthin... rite? so, who now still thinks i'm perasan?

7. learnin is FUN... not jz a nessesity
uh yea... if it wasn't in a classroom, wiv borin bks dat put u 2 sleep, dronin teachers, and exams dat make u cram ur head wiv facts dat u'll prob nvr put 2 use in da future. oh wait... dat's my sch on weekends.

so, there u haf it... all i learnt or wut i can rmb i learnt throughout all dis yrs of sch. oh no.. mom, dad... did i waste ur money or wut???

day out... errand runnin n heavy loads

had quite a bz day. ran abt town, did errands... chores... err, actually my mom did. all my sis n i had 2 do was jz follow her around (chaperone) n carry all da stuff (bell-boy). but da plus point was dat we got 2 go 2 baptist bk store n buy stuff. i gt a new purse n a cd (hillsongs). yayy! haha. lunched at continental bakery. all of us asked 4 mushroom soup but it was out of stock. can u believe it?? out of stock! n i was cravin 4 a bowl of creamy, mushroomy bowl of hot soup at dat time. huh! shud've eaten at maxim's. at least they haf soup there. ok, sry... i do get carried away wen it comes 2 food. we went 2 da library after shoppin at giant (pg plaza) which was after lunch. wen we reached home... oh yea... b4 i forget, i shifted from a hs 2 an apartment which, i assume u mz all nt noe yet, by now as i haf nvr brought da sub up (didn't feel da urgent need 2, sry). i mz say... livin in an apartment sure is diff from a hs, in a lotta ways. we had 2 bring up all da groceries, plus bks, plus wtv else dat we bought all da way up 2 our place. Heavy!

da worst thing abt shiftin 2 an apartment so far has been leavin my dog. i miss her so much!! but we'll be reunited again wen we shift bac 2 de old hs. dat is, after we renovate it.

my christmas

how i spent my christmas day

christmas morn
got up at 9... got ready den yelled at sis 2 get up at 9.45. picked up pris n tim n headed 2 shangri-la where we had sun serv since i dunno wen. well, as of always... we were shoo-ed from our seats 2 make room 4 de otha ppl. well, in pastor's eyes, we are, n will always be, kids. so, we walked here n there lookin 4 a gud standin spot (i was wearin a skirt btw). and, ended up right at da bac of da hall. then, gave out presents, received.

christmas afternoon
went home after church. mom cooked n my grans were there too. watched 13 going on 30 again. after da movie, lazed around, slept,read da newspaper until my eyes hurt. den watched tv again.

christmas night
my dad ordered tandoori chicken 4 us 4 dinner. had a quiet evenin wiv my family n listenin 2 christmas carols from il divo's 'christmas collection'. jz us, u noe. watched 'a christmas carol' which was on tv (yeayea... call us couch potatoes if u want) n another movie after dat. quite a cheap way 2 spend christmas. but it was ok.

" let the stars in the sky
remind us of man's compassion
let me love till i die
and God blesses everyone"
(from 'A Christmas Carol- the musical')

the aftermath ==> lessons in life

growin up is more den i can handle dis days. n it's NOT all dat fun. actualli, it SUCKS!! but, i guess da core of da prob is me. man, i've got sum serious growin up 2 do. my maturity jz doesn't justify my age. wut i mean is dat i've gotta start actin my age... ie... handlin responsibilities, think less childishly, relate 2 other ppl betta... which brings 2 my attn, a story which made me realise dat i am rather childish; in manner n thoughts, actions n deeds. dat, n oso da fact dat unknowingly, mt immatureness has caused sum1 2 be hurt. b4 i continue wiv my tale, i jz wanna say dat 1 shudden blame 1's parents 4 wut 1 has bcum. dey (da parents) do play a part in mouldin da outer layers but deep within da person, is 1self. U are wut U are. da best parents haf da worst kids. n vice versa. so, dun blame my parents 4 wtv dat i do wrong. it's ME, nt dem.

da story ====>
well, one day, nt too long ago, no, actualli vry recently... there was dis group of frens dat went out for a movie n all dat. in dis group, dere was an adult n oso a gal; stranger 2 most of da group cept 4 de adult n da person's child. so, after da movie dey grouped outside da cinema n durin sum smalltalk among da frens... dey happened 2 mention sumthin in a way dat offended da new person unknowinli. anyway, no 1 knew dat da person was insulted until da nxt day wen de adult heard it from dat person's parents abt da slight n called a memba of da group 2 reprimand dem 4 their behaviour.

I was one of dem

n i'm ashamed of dat. we were guilty of 2 offences.
1. dat we didn't make any effort 2 make her feel welcome.
2. dat we shudden haf sed wtv it was dat we sed dat made her feel offended. but dat, was realli intentionally.

but, in our defense... she shudden haf made such a big fuss ova a slight matter. my frens wudden. wtv it is... i noe dis has been a real eye-opener 4 me. i'll try 2 change, realli, i will. so, i'm hopin, no, i noe it's my duty as da "guilty" party 2 make things rite wiv her. i gotta.

christmastime

christmas drama underway. ahh... i jz lurve dis part of christmastime. yesterday was da 1st openin nite at dewan sri pinang n it was realli packed. hopefully tonite n tomorrow nite'll be da same, if nt betta. can't wait 4 it, but dun want it 2 end either... sigh* onli 2 more nights 2 go.