i really suck at letting go

christmas is in 4 days...

and i'm still not feeling it.


maybe this christmas will be better than the rest! :)

it's time to move forward and stop looking back

on chivalry

maybe i'm being too picky, but really la, where have all the good men gone?

lol


gentlemen are quite endangered nowadays.

or maybe they just don't teach those kinda stuff to boys anymore. which is a pity cos, there're some really basic things which should be done but sadly are not. for example:

walking a girl home
come on guys, it's just basic courtesy to make sure your girl friends get home safely. and it makes you seem very 'knight in shining armour'.

when sending a girl home in a car, wait til she goes into the house before leaving.

holding the door
not just for girls but for anyone. i know girls nowadays are all about female empowerment and not needing a guy to help, but it's just nice to have someone hold the door for you :D


i'm sure there are some more stuff that a lot of men (note: i said men not boys) should do but don't. unfortunately, i don't have time now. so, i guess that'll have to wait.

when the oceans rise and thunders roar

i know everything will be ok eventually...

but right now i'm feeling awfully tired and broken.
really really not so great.


hmm... i need strength to go on. and it's so hard.

just feel like i don't belong anywhere anymore.
i thought work would be a distraction. but everytime when i go home, it's still the same.
seriously never thought coming back would be this difficult.
i really love penang, but wish some things would change.
but, maybe it's all for the best.
maybe God is teaching me something.


Jesus i REALLY need your strength for this.
it seems trivial but i can't seem to take it. hmm... feel so weak that i need people's approval and love. but it's the sad truth, i do need it.