it's that time again

shooting is waiting waiting waiting waiting waiting wait.....

that's why we have time to do this

downsizing

i need to. learn how to love myself more.

i need to. grow up.

i need to. get some dignity.

i need to. keep my temper.

i need to. stop being a control freak.

i need to. smile more. i mean really smile.

i need to. let the small things go.

i need to. stop needing you so much.

aiyo so cute!

watch the pensel

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i got this from alarize who got it from a pastor back in singapore (i forgot who)

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to all guys... you are

"male by birth, man by choice"

so chun le.

no offense guys... hehe. didn't mean to tembak anyone. just thought i'd share this one sentence that speaks a hundred words.

photo album

i like looking at old pictures.

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even if it makes you want to forget that "that" was ever you.

can't believe i was ever that nerdy

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even if it brings back all the memories of "don't wanna friend you" etc

back in the days when i still did not have to wear specs

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even when the biggest problem in the world was not being chosen as class monitor

i seem to have a twin here

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it was a good childhood still. i have so many memories of playing at the yellow bars (cglians remember?), running along the corridors, falling down (i was a very clumsy kid), and climbing cupboards to hang up posters.

and i was so darn cute ler!

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and i am still ok!

just the idea of going to class the next day is stressful enough. i don't know why it's so tiring, it's not like i have too much work, i do but i think i can handle it. it's just that after classes i feel so drained i'm too tired to be happy i'm going home. and when i'm home i don't know who i can turn to. maybe i'm too demanding?

the thought of weekends gets me through the weekdays.

It's Good Friday

the day Jesus Christ died on the cross for us ungrateful people.

have been reading up on Luke chap 22 through til 24 just to get hyped up on Good Friday and Easter. I'm tired of just going for yet another Good Friday/Easter service. I want it to really mean something to me.

anyway blessed Good Friday & Easter people!

even if you don't know Him, God loves you.

* service at Masyarakat Penyayang tonight at 8. come!

:)

col starts tomorrow. on one hand... on the other hand... oh nevermind.

had an 8 hour marathon at hunza today... mostly playing the piano. but no complaints le. ok just one: pinkie pain. i'm rested and clean now so everything's good everything's nice :)

i'm nice

penang's just awesome la. i have things to do everyday, appointments, people around me... and i don't even have to beg for them to come hangout with me. well what to do la? happening mer. haha. yah i'm just kidding just kidding... would i be thaaat perasan? and i've already had most of the food i salivated over back there so tummy's satisfied, she's satisfied too. i wanna blog but somehow i can't. everything that comes out is nonsense. i mean, i'm just babbling now aren't i?


so i shall now talk about what i did during the week.


i guess you don't want to hear about where i hung out or what movies i watched right? (oh btw, i watched 'taken'. you should totally watch it! although it doesn't really make much sense... i mean, how can one man fight everyone? superman meh? but if I, the anti-action movie person says it's nice, it's probably good). anyway, the juicy parts... erm... i'm playing tambourine again. did you know i could? probably la. if i was asked to play for easter that means someone somewhere must've known. but what they didn't know was that i only learnt the basic-est of the basic steps, and that i haven't touched it in 5 years. yeah... since form 3. i only started searching for it hours before my first practise. oh no! but i like dancing le... so it's fun. although i'm the most behind one in the group.


and i was asked to act (yes again!) for my college promotional video. lol. i don't know why they keep asking me back, it's not like my acting's wow. and it would be nice if we had some money out of it. yeah... a lil extra income is always good. so basically, my job was just to look pretty *ahem* and act like a student, go out in cliques, point here and there... pretty much a keh leh feh role le. which suits me just fine. so far i've done one photoshoot and two 'appearances' in videos. good for putting into resumes i guess. but i just can't get over how round my face looked on those college brochures. where got so fat in real life???



here. i'll let you see it again. fat right? sigh... i don't even know who that girl in the brochure is honestly.








other than that, revival came back to ignite yay! i realised i've been doing the 'go to church because it's my habit, and besides my friends are there' thing lately. and it's as if everything is just so routine... but now i can smell change in the air. at least i know i want to change. this week has been a pretty tough week for me, and yet, i don't not wish that it didn't happen cos well... i'm learning to let go of the small things and focus on the bigger things. and other things also which i would rather not mention here. cos i'm lazy and i don't know how to explain and it's personal. like i told steph and ann ann, something needs to happen before you realise you need to change... or something along those lines. like how the soil is always much more fertile after a volcanic eruption. right right right?



oklah... enough babbling.
start putting random pictures (ok in this case, random picture) up. here's one...

waiting at subang jaya station. don't blame us... we were bored