i will love people

if you've been following my blog or know me quite well personally, you would have known/noticed that the past few weeks haven't been the easiest on me. yeah well, this thing happened and threw me off balance, and let's just put it this way, i did not deal with it well. it probably was a long time coming, just that i didn't want to look at it that way cos i don't like to give up on things easily.

anyway, throughout that whole time, i didn't really know how to deal with it except by shutting everyone out... haha yes, and just putting this happy show on. i thought i could deal with it myself but, as they say... grief shared is grief halved.

and there were people who encouraged me and just spent time talking to me about stuff. and i'm really blessed and encouraged by these people who've helped in their own little ways. just today i received this email from a friend asking me not to be emo anymore. very touched :)

so the point of this post...
i feel so selfish just thinking about me me me all the time, and you know what? the time for grieving is over. i know i have a calling over my life, and though i have no idea what that is yet, i know what i want to do meanwhile. i want to bring people together, and in some way, be a blessing in their lives.

which will mean, some work in certain areas:
i will take the time to get to know people
i will not get easily irritated with difficult people or shun them
i will ask 'how are you?' and really mean it
i will take every opportunity i can to encourage and bring people up
i will love people

i know i'm not the most accommodating and friendly person, but one step and one person at a time.

it's time to give out the stuff that i've been taking in. sounds dodgy (haha) but, you do get what i mean right??