anyone happens to have a dose of joy with them?

some people make too big a fuss over things which frankly, don't deserve thaaaaat much attention.
or maybe i'm just being sour and cynical.
which seems to be a pattern these days with me. i'm meaner and colder. hmm not how i want to be like, or see myself heading.
oh well... when circumstances forces you to be strong, you get strong, but perhaps along with that came a hard coating designed to keep the world out as well.

so yes, i would say that i'm more world-weary now. and harder.
that girl who was all smiles, laughters and sunshine... oh she's probably on a ship to alaska now.

but then again... did that girl even exist in the first place?





you know how when you turn into a wrong road, the gps recalculates your route?


well i'm still recalculating.

tired. so tired.