no complaints

i have a new hobby. its name is complain.

for those who know me well, you'll probably go "oh THAT's new? but she always complains." but this time, the complain level has escalated to about 10 times more. i complain when i'm free. i complain when i'm busy. i complain that i'm hungry. i complain that i'm tired. i complain that it's raining. i complain when my touch and go expired.

see what i mean?

it's awful! i already feel like crap and the complaining makes me even worse. i mean, who's gonna suffer in the end? ME. yes, it's hard being cheery when you're kicked out of your comfort zone and forced to fend for yourself, but i all that complaining really affected my emotions and my relationship with jt and God. cos i'm always complaining to him only. see i've been relatively (not totally okay...) pampered back home so this is like... being in the north pole with just a singlet and shorts. okla i'm exaggerating a bit. hehe.

so...

after a very enlightening conversation with jt, i realised how awful i was being... and i'm trying (keyword being 'trying' here), to become a more positive person. how many times have i said that? too often. but twin towers weren't built in a day la so understand... anyway, step one is to stop complaining. and thank goodness today was a good day. or maybe i had better perspective? whichever it was... i'm happy. and that's all that matters for today. as for step two, i haven't quite figured it out yet. will make it up as i go along.

so like i said, today was a good day.

i bought a new t&g card, didn't have that much work in the office, i'm fitting in more with my colleagues too, and it didn't rain. the train was early too, i ad my mp3 to accompany me back and i even treated myself to a magazine. the only thing is that i have to pass te creepy house with n windows every single day when i walk home. there're no windows. just a big hole where every day without fail, at whatever time, there'll be a few guys of unknown nationality at the window looking out. scary wei. so i'll usually walk extra faster whenever i pass them. which is not very fast cos i'm usually ired when i reach that house.