get physical

i just realised that i'm quite a cold person.

A) i hardly show any of my feelings to people

and

B) i'm afraid of physical contact.

this is bad you know? unless i'm feeling unnaturally sweet and loving, i usually have loads of difficulties showing affection to people. i mean, i do love my friends and my family (i really do), but sometimes, it's just so hard to show them. to some people, it comes easily.. but it's hard for me. i only spontaneously show affection to animals. man, this is starting to sound so bad.

but... i am trying. and learning. maybe i'm afraid of showing my soft side... maybe i'm just afriad of things i can't control... i dunno. but i am trying.