so blue

life's not that great nowadays

basically, i'm just studying and panicking,

studying and panicking

and haha, not going to school

i just dunno what to do now

you can't believe how sick i am of this endless studying

i've got so much to do, but so little time

so sickening

dad's got a new clock for the study

it's kinda chinapek-ish, but well... bought from china wut

man, is this clock noisy

chiming and saying something in chinese (which no one understands) every hour.

*sigh* every hour.

i'm feelin so restless.

i really dunno what to do.

i realise that it's the 2nd time i'm saying that

but i really dunno what to do.

what to do?

i feel so pessimistic, demoralised, tired and my head is all just jumbled up

what i want, i can't get

it's frustrating, it's hard and it's tough but i must!

i must give it up, i must forget it and move on.

reach out for better dreams.

better things ahead for me.