Saturday, July 29, 2006

things, things everywhere


i'm currently hankering after a new phone. sony ericsson's V630i which is so Unfortunately, NOT AVAILABLE in m'sia!!! so, so unfortunate!! y, oh y? must the phone i crave be THE one that the country doesn't import?

can u see it? isn't it jz such a beauty? *sigh* 2 megapixel cam, instant upload of photos to blog, mp3 player, err.... wut else....and other not too significant things which left my mind.

but anyway.... life isn't all abt things. material stuff. when lionel came bac n talked a lil' abt life on doulos n his changed perspective of life after seeing first-hand the poverty of some nations..., i actually felt that my whole existance was a farce. so shallow. so petty. i mean, everyday, all i think off is abt things that i want ( i already haf lots, so much, but isn't it human nature to nvr be satisfied wiv wut they have?), sch (scoring in exams, stuff at sch), my friends n family, church, my single life (ok, i'll admit to that, at least). all that plus my other activities. that's jz it. that's IT! all of my life, when i could be doing more meaningful things like saving ppl, n i waste it here typing abt wut i could do. ppl out there r starving n here i am eating almost 5 meals a day n still complaining abt it.

it's a shallow life, the 1 i'm living now. when my life's ambition is to marry well (hey, i'm being frank here) n have beautiful kids who won't rebel (quite impossible, i think), great job, n finally, go to heaven. o yeah, b4 that, i wanna go see the world, expand my horizons... widen my horribly cramped perspective of the world.

i'll try to be less materialistic but it's hard if u live where i do. where the mall is the only place to hangout n ur constantly surrounded by ppl pushing their wares into ur face. it's almost an agony to say no, really. but, i'll try. put my life back into perspective, get my priorities right n concentrate more on God n wut's important. but, i'm still going to get myself new sunglasses. hey, i'm gonna drive soon ya know... n don't even dare say that i'm materialistic.

2 comments:

lalalim said...

haha, I know what u mean. One moment all I think about is me this me that, then after hearing about other less fortunate countries etc, where help is really needed, and that there is more to life than what I think about everday, I realise again how shallow I'm living my life. And start living a more 'meaningful' life. But very quickly, I 'forget' abt all that and carry on living in my little, ignorant world of mine. Viscous, selfish cycle that is.:(

denise said...

sad story eh...
especially when you're surrounded by things jz screaming at you to buy them.
maybe we should all form a material ppl anonymous or something. it could help... or we could jz backpack to i dunno... one of the wartorn countries 4 a reality check. anyway, it's gd to know i'm not the only one in it.