abt college

i'm lookin into my future. urm, no, not thru a crystle ball . wut d u think i am? a fortune teller?? wut i meant was... (ok, maybe "lookin" wasn't da choiciest of words) dat i'm tryin 2 imagine wut life'll bring me in da near-far future. like, nxt yr, wen i start college (i doubt i'll be going 2 f6). n if i do a course in art n design (haven't decided which yet), i'll prob be in kl which is abt 4 hrs away from home. whoa, scary... now dat i think of it... . for a sheltered kid like me, well, dis'll be a lot of firsts 4 me. but den again, i've not even taken my spm yet. tok abt jumping ahead.

while still on da subject of colleges...
i'm interested in the one academy. they gave me a ton (err... exaggerations aside, 2 bags worth) of leaflets n booklets abt their courses n campus n high achievers n stuff like dat. i liked wut they had 2 offer so... who noes....? i might jz be one of da students 4 all u noe abt dis time nxt yr. n hobnobbin wiv other famous names too n who noes *whisper* be one too. big dreams denise... BIG dreams

but then, i went 2 limkokwing's site, n it was pretty impressive too.

or maybe i'll jz do da course in mmu. heard da campus's quite stocked.

ahh... we;ll see. hopefully i DO get 2 do it. u noe... it's nice jz 2 think of things. think n dream. like, ur future... or wutever dat cud or might happen. in ur head, u can make anything happen. but in real life... u can eat dirt 4 all any1 cares in dis human eat human world. dun mean 2 sound so bleak, but... isn't dis wut we;re comin 2? maybe dat's y i do so much dreaming... it's so comfortin sumtimes 2 recede into ur own world where da right things always happen.

grey

today showed lots of promise of a gud day. well, until de afternoon dat is. i dun no wut 2 say. my disappointment noes no bounds. n i'm so sleepy. n as u can pretty well see... i'm nt in da bestest of moods now.

>>>everything sucks 2day. <<<

the Denise Diaries

the denise diaries
startin wiv mon (24/4/06) n endin wiv wed (26/4/06)

mon:
woke up earlier so as 2 haf ample time 2 put on contacts. call it vanity, call it a nesescity... i had a photoshoot, so it's fine 2 wanna look nice in ur last sch mag of ur life. yes? no?
later...
i had only1 shoot cos my other 1 was canceled. dunno y...
in de afternoon, slept as usual (gosh! i'm really turnin into a bed potato nowadays) n later woke up groggy 2 do my add maths hw (tuition). tuition after dat. add maths, if u mz noe... which kinda explains y i was doin my hw. haha, bad habits i noe. ended da day wiv studyin. exam's r comin.

tues:
woke up even earlier in da mornin 2 put on my contacts and wear my guides U. i still can't muster de art of wearin it in a blink of n eye despite 4 yrs of wearin it. guess i nvr will.
had 3 shoots today. hopefully i dun come out blinkin in da photos thx 2 dat awful blindin flash. saw stars 4 awhile after dat.
later at home...
cousin brought ova da dancin mat 4 da ps. cudden concentrate on my phy hw after dat. i did try it after dat but i dun think i'm gonna be showin off my moves in gurney any time soon. lol. tho i might accept 1000$$. my sis n i played wiv it until midnite after watchin desperate suri rumahs'.

wed:
fine-tunin plans 4 belle's surprise b'day party 2 be held in da masakan room durin recess. cudden really concentrate durin history cos of all dat plannin n anticipatin... actually, i was pretty much distracted from my lessons da whole day. n tomorrow... goin 2getha wiv a few frens 2 watch em in her public speakin state finals. can't wait... ! tho i'm kinda sry 4 those who wanted 2 go but cudden.

after all dis yrs...

u noe, things always haf dis strange habit of comin 2 u wen u least expect it. it might be days, weeks, or yes, even freakin long yrs to wait... but yea, it does come. or maybe i'm 1 of da more unfortunate ones whom dis things happen 2. *sigh* but anyway...
i've been hankerin 4 a ps(playstation) since std 5 but nvr got 1 (understandable cos i get bored of things quickly n my parents noe it). n surprise, surprise... my cousin lent me his old ps last sun. f-i-n-a-l-y.... i haf a ps after 6 yrs. n da best part is, he might nt be needin it bAC so soon... or hopefully, nt at all. muahaha *evil grin*. but i am thankful... n VRY tempted 2 jz sit in front of da tv playin games all day long.

but well... exams 1st.... exam's 1st

for da love of music.... haha

today's my 1st time playin piano 4 yas. kinda scary really... but thank gudness dat i had prac durin my isca days. cos usually, i play da keyboard 4 yas. being da pianist is well... quite pressurin (2 me) , i mean, ur like... leadin de otha instruments n blendin dem 2getha. i dunno abt other bands, but dey do it like dat in my church. yea. so, it was quite a big leap 4 me, but... i'm honored. haha... yeayea... i'm nt abt 2 get big-headed so it's alright. i like playin n stuff... u noe, in a band n all dat. but lessons...lessons r such a drag. esp if u hate it so much n r forced 2 do it. take it from sum1 who noes. i hate it so wen i am forced 2 learn. actually, i nvr liked my piano lessons (my confessions... hehe) . i only rather liked dem after i finished my gr8 n my teacher let me play romantic(as in romantic period, so dun get me wrong) n latin pieces which were pretty ok. but now, i haf dis otha piano class which i take wiv my sis n a fren which i LOATH 2 da fullest. can't wait 2 quit it nxt yr. wut joy it'll be wen i do.

but dat's nt 2 say dat i dun like music ya noe... i do. n do like playin da piano. n da violin (altho i seldom prac. bad of me... i noe.). n da git (quite badly i mz add). music has been ingrained in2 me n is a part of me now. but i lack da passion n drive n talent 2 pursue it as a career. imagine me as a music teacher.... *shiver* it's nt dat i'm puttin music teachers down, but i was thinkin of it more from da future students point of view. i'll prob be able 2 put da fear of all things music in dem if i do actually teach. but i like jammin tho. only we dun haf da resources n time n a drummer.

oh, n btw... i find musicians really attractive. uh-huh. prospective bfs' haf got 2 be musicians. does dis sentence sound wrong? or do i sound wrong....?

footie fever

i've waited, n waited... n guess wut? i'm still waiting. it's been yrs since i've been anticipatin it. months since i've been eagerly awaitin it. n still countin da days... argh!
When on earth is WORLD CUP gonna start??????
i can't wait 4 it. but it's jz a HUGE pity dat i won't be able 2 watch da live matches. ahh.. blasted time zones....

issues... issues.... n happenins

and i'm bac. i jz read da stats of my site, n *big grin* guess i've got my readers bac. or maybe it's a few readers who view it a lot. *shrugs* wutever it is... i'm jz glad dat ppl actually frequent my pg. dat's more den enuf 4 lil' ol' me.

issues of da week.... & den some.
~ ok, let's see.... aha! well, here's one. from my observations (dis might sound rather scientific i noe, but wadahel.... i'm a science student afterall), i've made a hypothesys err.... hipotesis.... (wtv, i learn it in malay anyway) dat ppl who've been victims of other ppl tend 2 victimize other ppl. umm.... confusing? a simple example, [A] who was bullied by [B] tends 2 do da same to [C] after awhile. i've witness it. actually, it always happens 2 me. as in, wen i do get lashed (figuratively speakin, of cos.. *shock* wut were u thinkin??) n wen i get da chance, i (sadly) do da same 2 a weaker person. i noe... sounds terrible. n i agree. now, if onli things like dis cud be stopped, da world WUD be a much nicer place 2 live in. ppl won't go around hurtin others like a chain dat has no end. don'tcha think so?

~aww.... i forgot wut i wanted 2 post nxt. dang! well, whilist i collect my thoughts dat sumhow must haf dropped out along da way.... if u must noe, i had a series of lectures dis week. as in courses lectures... not angry parent lectures...hehe. some were fine... but most were downrite zZZzzzz inducing. i dun think i wud like college life all dat much if it is like dat. ya noe... lectures, lectures, n more lectures. i can't seem 2 concentrate like dat. help ME!

~n speakin abt lectures... guess who went 4 her first driving course?? yep... my 1st step towards musterin de art of driving. wonder wut kinda driver i'll be....

~not 4gettin.... went wiv my family 2 watch pcc's easter presentation at dewan sri yesterday. it was quite gud, if i cud say so meself. it was really sitcom-ish, if u noe wut i mean... n 2 me, da lead actor jz fell out of a m'sian sitcom. really trully. n de otha lead was fabulouso too. mebbe cos of his un-fake american accent.

~heard thru da grapevine abt da latests going ons which i obviously had no idea of. most of da going ons bein abt who did it n with whom. yep. u heard me alrite. n NO! i absolutely didn't noe dat they were so 'active'. n a bigger NO... i haven't . n i still cling firm 2 bein a virgin till i get hitched which might sound lame n oh-so-old fashioned... but yeah! dat's my discission n u've gotta respect it. besides... things like AIDS, abortions, bastards, unwanted pregnancies, shattered lives wud decrease rapidly if onli we stopped 'doing it' wiv anybody n everybody. dis might be even harder den wut i previously said, but i do want my future husband 2 also be untouched. it's only fair dat way. i dun see y guys can go sleepin around n brag abt it n earn da name stud or macho while gals who jump from bed 2 bed r labeled cheap, sluts, etc..etc.... . i mean, where is da fairness here?

~ i still can't rmb wut was it i meant 2 say in da beginnin. so, i'm off. dis has been a most satisfyin blog so far.

gettin on.

da hs is overriden wiv ppl today. workers doin last touch-ups, cousin fixin da really dilapidated comp (which fyi, survived da whole ordeal of livin in a renovated hs 4 ages), more realtives visitin.... 2gether wiv a baby in tow. so, yup! da hs is really a busy hive of activity at da present moment. which kinda explains y i'm hidin wiv da laptop typin all dis.

meanwhile, i've got a party 2 go 2 later. leena's b'day... yay!! i noe dis doesn't reflect well on me, but i'm lookin forward 2 it partly bcos of da food. HI-tea, 2 be exact. haha.... can't wait. n of cos... she bein my gd friend.. i wudden miss it 4 a lot of things. n besides... i'm starving.

da worst part of movin is gettin used 2 it again. or rather, shiftin houses. i shud noe, i've been dere n bac again. literally. it's like, gettin 2 noe ur hs all ova again. n it's nt sumthin i do wiv ease, bein unfortunately, a rather rigid n unflexible person. it's darn hard 2 rmb all da switches (n it makes me so frustrated sumtimes), where i've put all my things... n basically, how chaotic da hs is rite now.

it's too soon 2 say, i noe... but i can't get used 2 it.

n it's freakin warm.

n i noe i shudden complain. heck! i dun even haf da right 2. okok... i'll try 2 be a less whiney person n grumble less. ....................!!? :-) see... i'm so much more pleasant now, ain't i?

gathering

i'm back... i'm bac!! n it's gr8 2 be bac. i can't believe i'm actually sittin on a chair (of reasonable height) n bein able 2 type without much difficulty. *sigh* i'm so overwhelmed.... jk. ;->

anyway, now dat we've gotten dat out of da way...
dis week has been jz as hectic (if nt more) den da last. man, i'm really feelin drained from all dat activity. all i need, is lots of hols n mebbe vouchers 2 a spa. yeah babeh! ahh... wut wudden i give 2 jz lay about listenin 2 relient K (or any other music 4 dat matter), read... , lotsa aromatheraphy..., massage.... chocs.... dat's life... 4 da rich, dat is. but no matter, if life hands u a lemon, make lemonade outta it.

yes, now bac 2 da happenins...
as u noe... my sch's rangers were hostin our annual gatherin (i guess, u hafta ask a scout or guide wut a gatherin means bcos i dun feel i'm up 2 it. but it's basically where ppl meet 2 prac da ancient art of movin limbs followin da beat of da music (think loud ear-splittin sounds n sweaty bodies) n 2 see & be seen. yup, dat practically sums it up.

but as da hostin sch, we had a ton, n i mean many blue whale tons... of work 2 do. mainly, wiv da hall deco n stuff. n da best part was, almost every1 in my class (da ever so hardworkin n kiasu 5A) chiped in 2 help us. it was really a touchin scene 2 see dem concentratin 2 do da work of which many wud nvr see da end result. now i noe dat dis class really is like 1 big family. we help each other in times of need. now dat's REAL moral. we dun need crappy 50-sumthin nilai's 2 help us be gud. but dun let me get started on it.

da gatherin went well... i guess. jz like any other ol' gatherin. u noe... troops cheerin n competin 2 be da loudest troop (honestly, dey didn't really haf 2), lotsof freedance (jumpin monkeys), gyratin hips.... let's see .. wut else... aha! n also a band. nt a vry gud 1 tho. but i'll reserve my comments coz as a fellow musician, i noe dat u need lotsa prac n exposure b4 bcomin gr8. n nt only dat, i'm sure they must've practised really hard 4 it.

it went well, but i didn't say i enjoyed it . in fact, ican't say i did. i mean, it was fine... but i didn't like, haf a blast. mebbe cos i was like, so outta things. tried freedancin but felt so stiff n awkward. n den... i didn't noe many ppl dere (as in, on talkin terms). how`sad. i dun think i'm much of a social butterfly, unlike my sis. honestly, i wish i was. but anyhow...