sick!

unconnected thought:

if a monkey suddenly finds that he likes to eat... say... fish. then, who are the other monkeys to tell him that monkeys don't eat fish?? technically, they can't force him to eat bananas (or whatever it is that monkeys eat these days).. i mean HELLO... it's his business what he wants to eat right??? no one and i mean NO ONE can force him to eat bananas just because monkeys are SUPPOSED to eat bananas. that's just wrong.

and btw... i'm not talking abt me for once.



well... on monday night, i had this irritatation in my throat. man, was it so darn irritating. so, ended up coughing pretty much the whole night. and woke up the next day to.... (i so hate this) a sore throat. so anyway, i went to school because i planned to and also because i didn't tell pris i wasn't going. and after recess... i was pretty much not functioning anymore. the only thing i could do was put my head on the desk to rest my poor boiling head. and the minutes couldn't tick by any s~l~o~w~e~r.



i think i'm quite a bad patient when i'm sick. the whole world that already revolves around me (or so i think) revolves around me MORE. hehe. well, when i'm sick, i'm sick. what can i do about that?? hey, at least i don't complain or grumble alright...



so, for now... no more ice-cream (dang, and they just bought 2 tubs of baskin robbins), chocs... no more junk food...., fast food, fried food, cold stuffs, hot stuffs, umm... what else? i think that's enough, otherwise i'll be eating air and making my own food. airsynthesys. just hope my suffering ends soon... but good thing my fever's gone. and i'm so perky today i could just eat my shoes! okay... maybe just maybe, the heat did fry my common sense just a teeny lil' bit.














i'm not hungry, i'm not hungry, i'm.... *burp* oops!

nonsensica

oh man... *groan* i think i over ate for dinner. i-feel-so-full.... shouldn't binge anymore. it doesn't pay to be gluttony, trust me, i know.

anyway, while we're no longer on the subject of my discomfort after over-consuming...

i find that (crap) i have nothing absolutely to blog about. talk about writeria blockeris. ok, i made that up. i'm bored... just trying to fill up space. see...see...see... it's pointless. you've caught me at a bad time, err... no wait, that's wrong. i've caught myself at a crapping mood.

hmm...this is just an observation, but to THE STAR readers out there, have you realised that as of world cup06, the star has featured kaka like almost everyday??? or at least every other day. i mean, everytime (ok, well, almost) i flip to the sports section of the paper, *ping* another article about AC Milan featuring kaka. or is it kaka with AC M only mentioned twice in very fine print? and voila! another large picture of kaka looking more like a male model than an international footballer. but of course.... that's not to say that i don't acknowledge his skills on the pitch though. and i also don't deny that he's eye candy but no, that's not enough to make him my footballer of the year. anyway, tell me why again am i getting into all this? ooh... i so like football!

i still haven't found anything substantial to write about. dang.

been very distracted lately. some things happened and well, i don't really know what to make of it/them. well, what else? it's a holiday nxt week (yayy!) and study break was canceled which means i go to school right to the last freakin day of school. *sigh*. of course, the last freakin day will most definately be full of hugging and crying and empty promises of catchin up after spm. i'm not being cynical (am i?) but tell me, how many of your friends do you actually hangout with after school has ended and for how long? can we? will we? hopefully. and i'm not really one to keep in touch after awhile. i know, bad habit. but i'll make an effort aight?

anyway, it's enough of nonsense for one day i think.

hola! and greetings fellow homo sapiens who happen to be receiving tons of radiation just looking at this. yeah, me too.. but what to do? great, i sound like a geek. it's a sunny hazy saturday afternoon which i'm spending staying at home *sigh* so, can you blame me?

nothing much happening these lazy days. had a bad stomach day on thurs which worsen at tuition... maybe i shoudn't have eaten that char koay teow (yumm) and 5 sour+'s before that. aikz... oh, but then, i got to skip school on fri ya know.

and today, well... nothing much happened other than my parents coming home at 12pm to find my sis still in bed which ended with my mom throwing a hissy fit. i think my sis has issues about getting up. man, i hate to say this but, she needs professional help. lolx... or maybe the "dummy's guide to waking up". hmm... good idea for christmas.

other than that, been lookin through some uni/college brochures... and i have to admit, i'm falling in like with the Uni of Queensland. so far, i like what see... it could be a possibility, but the only obstacle is well, $$$ . but i'm still lookin.

my wonderful practical skills.

i came across my sis's kh project just recently. her 'baju'.

which kinda brings me back to the [torturing] days when i still had to take KH. from what i still can rmb, i hated it. i couldn't saw (straight) or hammer or carve to save my life. OR sew. omygosh! that was the absolute worst. but i still say i can sew better than i can do woodwork. well, my mum says i hav limited (read: close to none) motor skills so... i guess that's that.

but somehow, i still managed to pass up a passable piece of work every end of the year. miracle! maybe not.

F1

sewing- embroidery. got my wonderful mum to do it for me. *grin*

woodwork- after forgetting to bring my wood for class practically for half a year, i managed to nail, hammer, saw and sandpaper my way into a thing. something. passable la. not michaelangelo, but it didn't make my teacher faint. so, i take it that it wasn't so bad afterall.

F2

sewing- a shirt using fabric u might usually see as curtains in a really tasteless person's house. after lotsa nagging from my mum (yet again) to finish it, we sent it to my aunt (who conveniently, was a tailor) haha! to finish it for me.

woodwork- oh man! this was the best year ever! in terms of KH i mean. my dad's friend is a carpenter. so... guess who my woodwork project went to? and my project came back, polished, finished and looking as good as bought. altho, i did kind of spoil it in the beginning by cutting a door or so in the wrong size. couldn't close properly after that. it just ain't my cup of tea.

F3

unfortunately, that year being THE pmr year.... i couldn't bring any of my work home. so, what to do....? it's either DO or DIE. so, obviously... i don't die that easily, had to do it. sewing wasn't all that bad (ok, it was darn frustrating when the sewing machines broke down, which was often. man, and this is a girls' school) but woodwork.... yuck! hate it. did it, re-did it, stayed back after school to syelek, got scolded by the teacher (i have bad handiwork).... yeah, it's all coming back to me now.

but of course... that was all yesteryears business. good riddance too. am now enjoying a KH-free life filled with cramming for SPM. *sigh* it's the time of year again.

D-Day: driving test

while most, if not all of you ppl were still in your comfy beds dreaming of who knows what... i was shivering, praying and pep talking to myself. seriously, i was so nervous n it's not even spm yet. and for those who've safely got their license already, don't sneer. at that time, u must've been as terrified as i was. well, not terrified exactly....but a lil' worried i guess. all that time, i was praying n praying n well, didn't feel so doomed after that.

anyway...
had time to compose my nerves ( inconvenient things, nerves) cos there were like, so many ppl there all waiting to take the tests too. good thing too actually, so i didn't feel to nervous n alone. i mean how could you right? when the fella nxt to you looks equally as freaked out. haha, ok, maybe i'm stretching the truth a bit. but u get my point.

finally...

"denise ('dennis', *sigh* yet again) ur up nxt" (the guy didn't say that, but it's close if u say it in hokkien). ok, this is it. get up, now breathe.... in out, in out.. yes, that's it. head to the car, no ...9 is it? everything jz happened in a blur. i got into the car (darn kecik kancil), all the while mentally reminding myself to: shift seat, rearview mirror, side mirror, seat belt..... what seat belt? yes, n that's where i made a HUGE really stupid mistake. i eased the car into 1st gear n was abt to go off when the tester gave me a funny look n asked if i'd forgotten anything. "ada lupa apa tak?" . my head screamed "SEAT BELT, SEAT BELT!!!!!!" n denise answered, "o yea... sry, sry... saya lupa." *sheepish grin*

so.... ntg much abt the rd test except that the tester was kinda bullying askin me to speed up. heck! can't you see that i'm nervous already taking this test without having to go faster n who knows, cause an accident in the process which would in turn make u fail me???

and after that, he handed me the pink slip. i, i, i..... PASSED!!! thank God for that. now, for the 2nd part of the challenge. so it was back to the waiting room for another session of staring at the ceiling and alternating with my nails, assesing every1 in the room, daydream.... yeah... wut fun right?

to cut the long story short

the parking, slope, n 3 point turn were a breeze. a breeze to do but i was really nervous abt my slope test. there's like a half-half possibility that i might mess up n go down the slope posterior 1st. happened lotsa times b4.

but i did it!! went up the slope, brake, waited 4 the go ahead sign n revved down the hill. whew! BIG relief. n the rest was history. enough said.

well, the only thing that matters is that i passed. i P-A-S-S-E-D! lulus...!



"....i can do what God says i can do...."

that's true.

have a heart

fri, 7.11pm: walk dog [check]
driving lesson [postponed]
physics [finished bab1]
laundry [pending]

i'm feeling particularly useful today. so far, i've managed to have an almost distraction free study time courteousy of my driving instructor who cancelled on me at 3.30 (lesson was supposed to be at 3). oh well... more time to study then.

had a heart exam today. in sch. so there i was, jz 1 of the many ppl in my sch waiting in line 4 the doc to check if my heart's beating alright. came to my turn, she put the stetoscope to my chest, n listened... n listened... n put it in 5 other different places n still didn't get what she wanted to hear. n then, oh man! she asked me to stay back while she checked my classmates. i was shocked! i mean, what? do i have a heart problem? am i unwell...??? as far as i know, i'm perfectly healthy. i eat healthy (err... ok, maybe not), i don't smoke, or drink, or hook up & i exercise when i can (ok, so i'm nt exactly VRY sporty, but still...). n there i was, asked to stay behind so she could run more tests on me to confirm if i'm suffering from a heart desease. OMYGOSH! i felt like some kinda freak sitting on the stool, waiting 4 her to finish so she could jz tell me wut on earth was wrong with me so i could recede back to class to continue my normal n HEALTHY life.

meanwhile, i was kept busy grinning at my friends (can u even grin when u might turn out to haf heart desease?? ) n reassuring them that i was a.ok (y was i even reassuring them? heck! i need all the conforting i can get). after what seemed like hours (it was actually minutes, but u know how time flies when you're having 'fun') of being a freak show exibit; time for my verdict.

how it went: the nurse asked abt my visits to hospitals in the past (yeah, hospitals... you know; clean sterile floors, scrubs, puking ppl, drips, injections, blood... you can always count on hospitals for 5* accomodation. luxury at it's best). n i told her abt having asthma in the past. but that was seriously long ago. i'm almost as healthy as any horse now. trust me. after having me breathe in n out a couple lot more times n having finally satisfied her that i did not, in fact suffer from any terminal illness, i was free to go. oh, Finally!

one last word: i'm fine alright! want to get on my good side? then don't ever ask me if i'm fine or not (regarding this matter ler). cos i am. anyway, i won't give in without a fight. i'll survive alrite!

jz talk

am going out wiv te (and her bf) n ross (n her bro) tomorrow. like FINALLY! we get 2 go out again. jz us... (well... if u dun count the additions....) . it's been sooooo infinately long since we went out together. i think da last time was after we got our pmr results n all of us were deliriously happy coz we got straight A's. n leena... yupe, mz not forget her. she was there too. me wiv my short hair (at tt time), leena n her new camera n happiness all around. i suppose we'll nvr get 2 relieve those memories, but at least we can create new ones.

my comp is going bonkers now n msn can't be used. argh!! sooo frustrating. makes one wanna turn all green n muscular n rip off one's shirt in da process. funnily enough, the pants manages 2 stay put n even expands 2 fit da bulging muscles. hmm... lycra? d u think?

o yea... n btw... i've finally bought my first pair of adidas sneakers.... *sigh of satisfaction* . it's pink. i noe i noe... i wudden haf bought it if they had blue. but i guess pink's alrite. i had it re-laced... dat is, my sis helped me wiv it. so now, one side's wiv pink laces n the other's white.

well, it looks something like it but not quite. yep, it's even better!

the Denise Diaries

the denise diaries
startin wiv mon (24/4/06) n endin wiv wed (26/4/06)

mon:
woke up earlier so as 2 haf ample time 2 put on contacts. call it vanity, call it a nesescity... i had a photoshoot, so it's fine 2 wanna look nice in ur last sch mag of ur life. yes? no?
later...
i had only1 shoot cos my other 1 was canceled. dunno y...
in de afternoon, slept as usual (gosh! i'm really turnin into a bed potato nowadays) n later woke up groggy 2 do my add maths hw (tuition). tuition after dat. add maths, if u mz noe... which kinda explains y i was doin my hw. haha, bad habits i noe. ended da day wiv studyin. exam's r comin.

tues:
woke up even earlier in da mornin 2 put on my contacts and wear my guides U. i still can't muster de art of wearin it in a blink of n eye despite 4 yrs of wearin it. guess i nvr will.
had 3 shoots today. hopefully i dun come out blinkin in da photos thx 2 dat awful blindin flash. saw stars 4 awhile after dat.
later at home...
cousin brought ova da dancin mat 4 da ps. cudden concentrate on my phy hw after dat. i did try it after dat but i dun think i'm gonna be showin off my moves in gurney any time soon. lol. tho i might accept 1000$$. my sis n i played wiv it until midnite after watchin desperate suri rumahs'.

wed:
fine-tunin plans 4 belle's surprise b'day party 2 be held in da masakan room durin recess. cudden really concentrate durin history cos of all dat plannin n anticipatin... actually, i was pretty much distracted from my lessons da whole day. n tomorrow... goin 2getha wiv a few frens 2 watch em in her public speakin state finals. can't wait... ! tho i'm kinda sry 4 those who wanted 2 go but cudden.

issues... issues.... n happenins

and i'm bac. i jz read da stats of my site, n *big grin* guess i've got my readers bac. or maybe it's a few readers who view it a lot. *shrugs* wutever it is... i'm jz glad dat ppl actually frequent my pg. dat's more den enuf 4 lil' ol' me.

issues of da week.... & den some.
~ ok, let's see.... aha! well, here's one. from my observations (dis might sound rather scientific i noe, but wadahel.... i'm a science student afterall), i've made a hypothesys err.... hipotesis.... (wtv, i learn it in malay anyway) dat ppl who've been victims of other ppl tend 2 victimize other ppl. umm.... confusing? a simple example, [A] who was bullied by [B] tends 2 do da same to [C] after awhile. i've witness it. actually, it always happens 2 me. as in, wen i do get lashed (figuratively speakin, of cos.. *shock* wut were u thinkin??) n wen i get da chance, i (sadly) do da same 2 a weaker person. i noe... sounds terrible. n i agree. now, if onli things like dis cud be stopped, da world WUD be a much nicer place 2 live in. ppl won't go around hurtin others like a chain dat has no end. don'tcha think so?

~aww.... i forgot wut i wanted 2 post nxt. dang! well, whilist i collect my thoughts dat sumhow must haf dropped out along da way.... if u must noe, i had a series of lectures dis week. as in courses lectures... not angry parent lectures...hehe. some were fine... but most were downrite zZZzzzz inducing. i dun think i wud like college life all dat much if it is like dat. ya noe... lectures, lectures, n more lectures. i can't seem 2 concentrate like dat. help ME!

~n speakin abt lectures... guess who went 4 her first driving course?? yep... my 1st step towards musterin de art of driving. wonder wut kinda driver i'll be....

~not 4gettin.... went wiv my family 2 watch pcc's easter presentation at dewan sri yesterday. it was quite gud, if i cud say so meself. it was really sitcom-ish, if u noe wut i mean... n 2 me, da lead actor jz fell out of a m'sian sitcom. really trully. n de otha lead was fabulouso too. mebbe cos of his un-fake american accent.

~heard thru da grapevine abt da latests going ons which i obviously had no idea of. most of da going ons bein abt who did it n with whom. yep. u heard me alrite. n NO! i absolutely didn't noe dat they were so 'active'. n a bigger NO... i haven't . n i still cling firm 2 bein a virgin till i get hitched which might sound lame n oh-so-old fashioned... but yeah! dat's my discission n u've gotta respect it. besides... things like AIDS, abortions, bastards, unwanted pregnancies, shattered lives wud decrease rapidly if onli we stopped 'doing it' wiv anybody n everybody. dis might be even harder den wut i previously said, but i do want my future husband 2 also be untouched. it's only fair dat way. i dun see y guys can go sleepin around n brag abt it n earn da name stud or macho while gals who jump from bed 2 bed r labeled cheap, sluts, etc..etc.... . i mean, where is da fairness here?

~ i still can't rmb wut was it i meant 2 say in da beginnin. so, i'm off. dis has been a most satisfyin blog so far.

gettin on.

da hs is overriden wiv ppl today. workers doin last touch-ups, cousin fixin da really dilapidated comp (which fyi, survived da whole ordeal of livin in a renovated hs 4 ages), more realtives visitin.... 2gether wiv a baby in tow. so, yup! da hs is really a busy hive of activity at da present moment. which kinda explains y i'm hidin wiv da laptop typin all dis.

meanwhile, i've got a party 2 go 2 later. leena's b'day... yay!! i noe dis doesn't reflect well on me, but i'm lookin forward 2 it partly bcos of da food. HI-tea, 2 be exact. haha.... can't wait. n of cos... she bein my gd friend.. i wudden miss it 4 a lot of things. n besides... i'm starving.

da worst part of movin is gettin used 2 it again. or rather, shiftin houses. i shud noe, i've been dere n bac again. literally. it's like, gettin 2 noe ur hs all ova again. n it's nt sumthin i do wiv ease, bein unfortunately, a rather rigid n unflexible person. it's darn hard 2 rmb all da switches (n it makes me so frustrated sumtimes), where i've put all my things... n basically, how chaotic da hs is rite now.

it's too soon 2 say, i noe... but i can't get used 2 it.

n it's freakin warm.

n i noe i shudden complain. heck! i dun even haf da right 2. okok... i'll try 2 be a less whiney person n grumble less. ....................!!? :-) see... i'm so much more pleasant now, ain't i?

gathering

i'm back... i'm bac!! n it's gr8 2 be bac. i can't believe i'm actually sittin on a chair (of reasonable height) n bein able 2 type without much difficulty. *sigh* i'm so overwhelmed.... jk. ;->

anyway, now dat we've gotten dat out of da way...
dis week has been jz as hectic (if nt more) den da last. man, i'm really feelin drained from all dat activity. all i need, is lots of hols n mebbe vouchers 2 a spa. yeah babeh! ahh... wut wudden i give 2 jz lay about listenin 2 relient K (or any other music 4 dat matter), read... , lotsa aromatheraphy..., massage.... chocs.... dat's life... 4 da rich, dat is. but no matter, if life hands u a lemon, make lemonade outta it.

yes, now bac 2 da happenins...
as u noe... my sch's rangers were hostin our annual gatherin (i guess, u hafta ask a scout or guide wut a gatherin means bcos i dun feel i'm up 2 it. but it's basically where ppl meet 2 prac da ancient art of movin limbs followin da beat of da music (think loud ear-splittin sounds n sweaty bodies) n 2 see & be seen. yup, dat practically sums it up.

but as da hostin sch, we had a ton, n i mean many blue whale tons... of work 2 do. mainly, wiv da hall deco n stuff. n da best part was, almost every1 in my class (da ever so hardworkin n kiasu 5A) chiped in 2 help us. it was really a touchin scene 2 see dem concentratin 2 do da work of which many wud nvr see da end result. now i noe dat dis class really is like 1 big family. we help each other in times of need. now dat's REAL moral. we dun need crappy 50-sumthin nilai's 2 help us be gud. but dun let me get started on it.

da gatherin went well... i guess. jz like any other ol' gatherin. u noe... troops cheerin n competin 2 be da loudest troop (honestly, dey didn't really haf 2), lotsof freedance (jumpin monkeys), gyratin hips.... let's see .. wut else... aha! n also a band. nt a vry gud 1 tho. but i'll reserve my comments coz as a fellow musician, i noe dat u need lotsa prac n exposure b4 bcomin gr8. n nt only dat, i'm sure they must've practised really hard 4 it.

it went well, but i didn't say i enjoyed it . in fact, ican't say i did. i mean, it was fine... but i didn't like, haf a blast. mebbe cos i was like, so outta things. tried freedancin but felt so stiff n awkward. n den... i didn't noe many ppl dere (as in, on talkin terms). how`sad. i dun think i'm much of a social butterfly, unlike my sis. honestly, i wish i was. but anyhow...

rojak

i was jz readin thru my past entries n man! i didn't realise how gud i was (pardon da head swellin)... but seriously, i was a lot betta den i am now. maybe it's da bad conditions in which i blog in nowadays... but... i really do suck now as compared 2 yesteryears. man...

anyway... i'll try 2 write betta now. i mean, u gotta improve rite? i think i dun make sense but anyhow...

o yea.. we had our annual Sports Day last week. hence da busy-ness. u noe... trainin n stuff. lol, maybe i shud jz keep it as it is n let ya'll think i'm sum big-time athelete... hehe. but sad 2 say... i'm not (i mean, do i even cum across as da atheletic type??) . i was in da marchin squad 4 my sports hs. yupe, where da non-atheletes are. we marched... we got yelled at... we did pushups...we sweated under da hot sun (hopefully i'm not burnt yet)... all da toil n hard work. but i haf 2 say... my gosh! i'm actually happy 2 do it. n da bootcamp regime actually paid off! yeayea... so wut if we won da marchpass trophy... ?! haha. dat we did. n i'm so happee considerin dat it's my last yr of sch n all... nxt yr, i doubt i'll even giv a damn abt wut's happenin in sch anymore. so, it's gr8 carin 4 da last time. another cause 2 be cheerful abt is dat green (dat is, my hs) managed 2 clinch 2nd place after 4 yrs of eatin dust. wut a nice end 2 my sch career. now if only i cud say da same thin abt spm....

cum 2 think of it, spm IS comin soon. yelp!
but comin soooner is da ranger's gatherin (my sch's) which i haf 2 admit i didn't do much 2 help. sue me, but i jz can't help feelin dat they (da committee) r takin things a LOT too seriously n man! those ppl shud go in2 politics da way they're at it now. aikz... but they're all my frens (n classmates) so, i can't say much... can i?