d@** & blast it all

well... u noe... things happen. all ur tryin 2 do is haf a gr8 time n haf ur frens wiv ya n den sum ppl make things misarable 4 u. n... u were jz thinkin of havin clean fun (it's auch a lame word but yeah... i guess dat pretty much describes it) . n den some ppl make u seem as if it's a crime 2 hv ur thing... n make u feel bad abt urself n abt everything else. & i'm vry sure dat' s how low self esteem starts. blast it all n d*** it. ah well... fish it all... i'm still gonna haf fun no matter wut ppl tok abt behind my backs. as long as i noe my principals... nothin's goin 2 be wrong. u wud nvr believe wut can happen ova a small matter (which isn't even bad, mind u) n blow it outta proportions. n no... if ur wonderin... it's nt abt relationship coz at tis point, i'm really quite happily single.

plus, our big debut's comin up. dis sat's da DAY! feelin vry jittery cos i'm supposed 2 lead. *gasp* sunno if i can pull it thru. God help me i will.

it's jz dat... sum ppl....ya noe... well... u noe.

feelin bluesy

1 gud thing... the exams r over. da bad... de teachers really seem 2 be grillin us wiv their papers... yea.. it was SO hard u cudden break it if u tried. n it's like wut, da 1st test of da schoolin yr. *groan* gettin da marks is gonna be a real traumatic experience.

other den dat, i dun realli haf much 2 say. my b'day is comin soon... n yeah.. dat's abt it. nt really in a bloggin mood 2day (den wadahel am i doin here?) .

happenins in a weekend.

*sigh* it's jz so sickenin bloggin jz once a week... n in such an environment as dis. dark, dusty, dirty... n my back aches from all da bendin i hafta do jz 2 type. yea... we've no computer table n i'm sittin on a chair i used 2 sit on wen i was in kindergarthen. n no... i'm nt jk.

dis last weekend was vry (n i say VRY) bz. i've a sore throat/ flu 2 prove it. n dat sux! esp since i've a test nxt week n i'm jz feelin so drowsy n lazy. n gosh! i haven't even finished studyin!!! horror!!!! yea... wtv. i dun think any1 wud like 2 see me gettin in2 hysterics anyway. so...

wut happened>>>>

1. sch on sat. can u jz believe it?? sch... on a sat! like 5 days a week of sch is nt enuf. but, we were half compensated coz half of da day was spent doin gotong-royong (which i got out of coz i was helpin teacher sell stuff 4 fund-raisin. hehehe.... it helps bein reliable ya noe..?). n de otha half was supposedly spent studyin. but 2 my "surprise" we didn't. how "shockin".
2. e-zone (psstt... mebbe it's jz me, but isn't da name kinda lame... ) . again... 1/2 gd n 1/2 nt so gud. spent da 1st ha;f listenin 2 william givin us 'de lecture' abt nt takin it seriously n wastin da church's money... n de otha 1/2 prac our actin. i like my group.... dey're so wacky. n i jz haf dis urge 2 squeeze ernest's cheeks. yea, so now u noe... dun cum near me if u think u haf a cute face. muahaha... orelse i'll squeeze da life outta ur cheeks.
3. i dunno if i shud mention dis, but somebody (i wun say who)... gave me a cd. an ori. but i dun think i can ever gif bac anything... ya noe...? it's jz... well, i really dun feel gud acceptin it.
4. concert la humilation is ova. finally. n well... i haf 2 admit dat it wasn't all as bad as i made it up 2 be. yea... it wasn't da most enjoyable thing in da world... but i guess i went thru it alrite. unhurt n unscathe.... met RC n made frens wiv a few peeps.
5. on mon... guess wut?? fell sick. runnin nose (yea... my nose is in Japan now...) n (wut i hate most of all) SORE THROAT. *gag* my throat feels as if i jz poured a whole kuali of hot, burnin oil into it. n also a few knives n needles. dat's how pain it is.

my camp (literally....)

last week was so bz. happenin. hectic. well, let's see... firstly it was da 1st ever canteen prefect leadership trainin camp. n i'm so bangga 2 say dat *ahem* pls excuse da swollen-headedness... i was so priviledged 2 be da 1 2 handle it all. as in organize, plan it out, u get da picture. n yeah, as da oh-so-cliched sayin " with great power cums greater responsibility" .... i felt it too. a lot of it. btw, who wud haf ever tot of spidey as a wise proverb maker.... 2 ponder upon it later. so, as i was sayin... stress, lot's of it.... tension... carryin lotssa burdens on my poor back... dat was wut happened 2 me weeks , or shud i say months b4 da camp even started. but, for wut it's worth (n all my whinin n grumblin... hehe... pls excuse it), i think i did a pretty gr8 job (now dun go all eye-rollin at me) n heck! i enjoyed meself n i'm sure it'll benefit myself in da near-far future. hopefully. now, i wun go in2 da details of da camp... i'm exausted even thinkin abt it cos most of my memories of ze camp were abt hollerin at dem 2 " faster!!", "hurry up... HURRY UPP!!!", " u can't do dat... " & da most famous... " Everyone, gather here NOW! or marks will be deducted". hehheheh... i like power *evil grin*. but i also hate havin 2 repeat myself 10 times a day n naggin ppl. omgosh! i do nag... n i'm sososo outta prac with bloggin. i jz can't think n string a word-perfect, understandable, hilarious, simple but complicated sentance anymore. i need my streamyx bac. urgently. i've got so many things 2 say, but time (n my mom) is pressin. in otha words... i need internet bac or my life'll be so miserable!!! jz kiddin....

single on V-day

v-day is comin... n guess who's gonna spend it alone? well, if u tot i was gonna say ME... u were wrong. dead wrong. i noe, i noe.... v-day is SO comercialized... like, so cliche. but well, like dey say.. wen in Rome, do as da romans do. n if u tot i had suddenly gone from bein single to... nt so single... give urself a "pat" on da back. ur wrong too. haha. i'm gonna spend da overtly overrated most romantic day of da yr (supposedly) , in da company of friends n family. nt a bad way 2 spend it, i think. well, i lurve all of them, n v-day's supposed 2 be spent wiv ppl u luv, rite? so there... tt pretty much sums up my itinerary for de comin date. do i sound bitter? hopefully not. altho i dun like sayin it here... i've managed 2 cum 2 terms wiv my single status, n umm... i dun realli mind now. i will nt be desperate. heck! bein single ain't dat bad afterall u noe... but of cos.....

subjected 2 public humiliation

NEWSFLASH!! Gal gets humiliated in public concert. Jz so u noe, i'm 2 perform in a concert organised by da music sch i go 2. dun ask y.... but i'll haf u noe.... it goes down in history as 1 of de most embarassin things i haf ever had 2 do. gosh! n we haf 2 dance a sorta lame dance in between playin. after i jz got ova d mortification of havin 2 dance, here dey go askin us 2 wear tacky lookin masks as a... cheap ploy. lame-O!!!! whoever who planned da program obviously went a lot overboard! n it's jz, LAme... DA WHOLE THING'S A PUBLIC HUMILIATION to me, n if dey wud like 2 noe, every1 too. it's jz too tacky, too kinky. i guess, da best thing's 2 get it ova n done with as quickly as possible. n hope dat i nvr see any1 i noe at da concert. help me get outta dis sum1!!!

on a cheerfuller note (mine, dat is) can't wait 2 see those pfs-ians freshly shaved heads in tuition 2moro n throughout da week. well, well, well.... wun it be a pleasure (n a HUGE source of entertainment) 4 me as well as de others. MUAHAHAHAHA!!!!

CNY woes. bleaugh

CNY is comin... u wud think i wud be tremendously excited n yayy-ing away. ok, dat's a silly way 2 start dis. i'll restart.

*ahem* CNY is dis sat. n guess who's very enthusiastic abt it? yea, i noe... weird gal! she's unhappy abt a festival, let alone DE festival. chinese new yr... chinese rite? yeah... my frens cudden understand either. well, 4 those who dun noe... let me clue u in on wut i do on a typical CNY. my grans r well... u noe elders... there's hardly in their tradition (n dat's y it's called a tradition), so, it's really a no -brainer thing 2 recount it. since, i've been doin it since always. wtv.
so... on CNY , we...
1. haf reunion dinner at my grans place (always steamboat wiv crabclaw, vegs n sum otha thingies) de adults will sit at 1 table, n we young ciku's a smaller table.
2. sit thru borin sessions wiv relatives i wudden noe if i passed dem on da street (some of dem). dey alwiz say da same thing... " wah! u've grown so big/ tall/ pretty (it varies) n dis is da most hated part of cny 2 me. de onli consolation is dat we get ang pows. quite a gud 1, considerin da discomfort.
3. eat goodies.. dis is quite a gud part . i like all da food.
4. sleep late. ok, dis is gud too. i alwiz luv my sleep.
5. are expected 2 serve guests n look like we enjoy it. at least i dun.

well, mebbe u dun see y i dun like it so much. but it's jz a habitual, once a yr torture 4 me 2 go thru dis, but persevere... it's onli 4 a few days in a yr. i can do it. i can do it!!

BACK!!!

omgosh!! i tot i wud go crazee from nt bloggin 4 like, i dunno... 2 weeks!!! i MISS you sosososo much blog! i think by nt postin anythin 4 sucha long time, i'll prob haf lost half, if nt all of my readers... OII... i'm bac... so, u can cum bac too.

ahh... bac at last... n wiv ntg 2 say. sigh* oh, where am i now? sittin amidst pile n rubble, nt 2 mention lots n lots of wires strewn around everywhere. dust, dirt, sand.... well, lt's jz say it's nt exactly da cleanest place in da world. n if u think i'm in a war zone... think again. jz in my hs where we're renovatin. big mess here.

happenins... happenins... can't think of much tho... dis past few weeks haf been abt co-curriculum activities, bla,bla,bla... u noe.. all dat. n yeah! it's GREAT bein da oldest in da sch (teacher's nt included). i mz say, havin ppl look up 2 u n r kindof like awed wen u notice dem (ok, maybe it doesn't happen 2 me) is realli, how d u say it, awesome..! n now, everybody's like, " wut r u thinkin of doin nxt time??" or, "wen's da edu fair??" wether we like it or not, we ARE growin up. i'll miss my wacky bunch of friends wen we split up n go our seperate ways after f5. but rite now... i'm goin 2 enjoy every enjoyable second wiv dem b4 we part. n yes, i noe... we've been thru dis b4 so, let's nt get started again.

study... tension... stress... study... future

altho it's jz da 1st week of sch... TENSION man!! da 1st thing ppl think of wen dey start sch (err... da F5's ler, dat is) is dat dreaded thing at de end of da yr which cannot be named. haha... ok fine, so wut if i'm exaggeratin a lil'... XP. o yea.. n as i was sayin, it's been onli da 1st week of sch... of Jan... of da yr 2006... and every1's already startin their revision n stress is buildin up. yea, includin me. jz thinkin abt all da studyin, tuition, midnite oil burnin is enuf 2 scare me silly. but den, wen u think abt it, ppl haf came out of de exam hall unscathed n unhurt... so, i guess i might jz survive it. hey, it's easier said den done k!!! esp wen u dun wanna look stupid wiv onli a few A's wen ur unbelievably (n sumtimes sickeninly... um... dun hurt me 4 sayin dis yea) SMART frens r gettin strings n scores of A1's ya noe... yea.. so wut if i'm damn kiasu? huh? huh?
well... *laughingly** all in da unwholesome name of crammin, jammin n stuffin ur grey matter wiv "useless", n borin facts dat prob won't help u in da near-far future in contrary 2 wut dey say. oh... in otha words... de all unmighty STUDY. yupp... n u didn't hear it from me.

growin up.

it's da start of a new yr n yep... u guessed rite...it's schtime! love it or hate it (haha... in my case...da latter), u gotta do wut u gotta do. dat is, balik ke sekolah; back 2 sch. well, i guess i can pretty much say dat dis yr'll be more umm.. meaningful cos well, it might be my last actual sch yr. college n uni r NOT actualli considered sch. hey, is it me, or haf i sed all dis b4 during my rant & rave sessions abt sch? wtvrrr.... here're no Fsixers in my sch so, technically... da f5's r de oldest in da sch (excludin teachers, mind u). dat's old.... i nvr imagined myself as a f5. i noe, inoe... 4 those who've passed dat stage n gotten their rites of passage, in other words, drivin license.. u might think "wutla... y is dis gal makin sucha big fuss abt turnin 17 (soon, soon) " . but 4 me, i'm still tryin 2 find myself n where i stand. u noe... jz think n reflect dat ...well... i AM growin up. oh.. shutup alredi... i wun tok abt it anymore. try to.

btw, HAPPY EARLY B'DAY JOSEPH!!! hope u read dis.