my new leaf.

i hav dis feelin dat wuteva i'm writin nowadays ( or all da time...) is kindda shallow. u noe, like, it's all abt me, me, me. i am jz such a self-centered whiner. so, from today onwards, i'll try to put sum "food fer thought" like my pengetua alwiz says. n also current events or issues... .

so, firstly...
+ chelsea's leadin in de epl... ( i try not 2 be bias, but LIVERPOOL....buck up man!!)
+ our prime minister's wife passed away nt too long ago. ( like duh! who doesn't noe abt dat) .
+ err... it's deepavali n hari raya nxt week. which wud make it deeparaya. yeah! u noe wut? while our fellow compatriots r decked in festive array, da rest of us get a whole week off from sch to PAR-TAYY!!! in our own ways, dat is. ( i mean, can u jz see me goin wild n dancin da nite away?? hmm... maybe).

btw, i'm also vry pleased to add dat i've improved in my studies n dat i'm doin betta now. i'll even remain in da 1st class nxt yr ( which is a huge relief).

i gt an award!! bwahaha....

stoopid camps.

i feel like a fool now. choices! hah! wut choices do i hv wen i can't even go? yeah, dat's rite! i can't go for traplex cos there's no space left for me. well, if dey wan 2 lose ( haha, perasan case) wif all da jrs... den, wtv. i mean, i jz wanted 2 help wut. but, whu cares! i dun. ok, dat's nt true. i'm disappointed n feelin unwanted rite now. but wtv! YOU chose UR ppl... YOU'LL regret tis!! yea, wen u lose... badly n humiliate our sch. jz so u noe, i dun care anymore... cos i'll be gone by den. da guides' r goin down anyway. they'll nvr, EVER, be as gd as us. u savvy??

on 2nd thoughts... dis might cum across as realli childish n immature but yea, i'm prob childish n immature too.

while we're on da sub of camps (grrr....hate dat word), i betcha nvr knew how hazardous de effects on camps hav towards certain ppl.

a lil' bird told me jz de otha day:
~a certain pl from pfs was so stressed out abt his camp preps ( his members wudden help him) dat he managed to successfully peel his whole toe-nail out! dis guy has MAJOR stress issues man!
~also, sum1 (anotha pl who's also from dat sch) was too overwhelmed by da workload ( or was it frustration?) dat he cried.

now dat's realli wut camp life is all abt. da stress, da agony, da glory. yupez. makes 1 wonder wut profit 1 gets outta all dis.

choices.... cHoicEs....

i'm in a quandry here. shud i go 4 traplex or shud i not? yea... 2 da uninitiated, or even de experienced... i prob sound like an idiot, ponderin abt a question as silly as dat. i mean, yea.. it sounds fun n all dat... ( n i do noe sum of da ppl dere, at least) . but wen i think of all da work dat i hafta do like last yr... i realli dunno... i've gt my studies 2 worry abt too ya noe... . nxt yr's spm n all dat... ish! y mz life be abt choices??? i hate choosin! on 1 hand is my duty to study n excel ( think parents) n on de other hand is me, my pleasure, fun, all dat....

wut d u think? i jz can't decide....

nvr tot i wud DREAD bkstores.... [getaway from me popular]

today... i wen 2 gurney wif pris n steph. yea... wtv. pris was like practically stuck 2 popular. she spent like, almost 3 hours dere...!! me n steph were so freakin bored so we wen 2 eat n jalan-jalan around lookin 4 skirts. n wen we came bac... she was still decidin on which bk 2 buy deb. later, we literally had 2 drag her outta mph.... . i've seen so much of bk stores dat i'm so sick n tired of 'em. ugh! nvr wan 2 go into popular again.

hehe... btw, i bought a be-au-ti-fool pair of 3/4 pants from o'reef.... ahh... so happi...!

continuation..... wUt hAppeNed neXt

to cut to da chase, we had cabaran (as usual). i didn't enjoy cabaran dis yr. prob cos i wasn't into it n my pl took my cabaran card away halfway thru n left me wanderin around aimlessly wif ntg 2 do. got into real depression mode den. but luckily, da previous yr's seniors came at dat time (includin u-noe-who... haha....), so, it wasn't dat bad anymore cos dey kindda lifted our moods.

n later, 2nd campfirenite. dis time, without da fire, dat is. but it was fun. i got 2 act. yea, but da act was realli umm... nt too gd compared 2 last yr. da sound system was bad... no prac wutsoever n it was altogether vry kelam kabut.

b4 i forget... a kind act i received from andrew. i rmb every kind gesture no matter how small ( i try to). o yeah, we ( da ppl actin) had 2 stand outside in da rain ( how stupid) n i was sayin dat i was so wet n all dat. den he (andrew) kindly offerred me his windbreaker as a shelter. aww... dat was vry chivalrous of him.

day 3

ntg much happened. jz da usual, inspection in da mornin, da mad rush 2 complete our log-book, n finally... strikin camp. oh, it was so sad.... our tower n gateway looked so magnificent! n later, transportin bamboo outta da campsite. i think i must've screamed at lotsa juniors 2 pull their weight n help around. den.... sobsob..... we went home... i'm jz so saddat we didn't get 2 spend more time together. hopefully, we'll still meet n greet each otha durin otha things n all dat.

picture up dere : my whole sub-camp. luv yea dark wingz.... ( tho it's a weird name)

2nd day

lemme think... wut happened durin da 2nd day. well, dere was...

1. walk 2 scotland rd library to use da internet (JOTI).
nt a vry fun walk i might add. it took us a long time 2 reach n cum bac bcos of da jit sin ppl who were a-strollin all da way. haiyoo.... dat's nt how ppl in pg walk guys... . met jocelyn dere studyin (she gave us sweets, haha) . by da time we got 2 go into da comp room ( we had 2 take turns bcos of da crowd), it was stinkin! badly. well, wut d u expect? sweat, B.O., n who noes wut else mingled 2gether.
so anyway, we got 2 use da comps. gotta sign in n stuff on da joti website. i had sum probs wif our coordinates so, ws came 2 help. we were like

denise: ( scrollin up n down)... wut?
ws: scroll right, right...
denise: oh... (scrollin)
ws: nt dere, dat's antartica la.... up!! no, right...
denise: wut?? (lookin blur)
ws: (frustratedly) cum, lemme use da mouse.
denise: (holdin tightly 2 da mouse, n refusin 2 hand it ova). nooo....i can do it.
a few moments later...
denise: oh, dere it is. ( pointin cursor at an island)
ws: no, dat's langkawi
denise: oh. ( maluation)
n finally... after much difficulty, i found it. tok abt attractin embarrassment wherever i go. ross tot dat he was quite patient wif me, but i tot otherwise. i felt dumb lar ok....

-to be cont'd-

1st day.... continuation

dis is us ( te, ross n mua) . n dis thing here is our baby. it actually works u noe. if u step on da pedal, da lid opens. not bad huh? n dis pic was taken minutes b4 strikin camp. it was like killin ur own flesh n blood to take it apart...

where was i? o yea... da d.u. so, we took de whole afternoon 2 build it (i hv no idea y it took so long wen we cud actually finish it in a few hrs, weird...) . by da time we finished, it was almost 6pm. tired, sweaty n hungry... we trooped into da hutment 4 dinner (which was char bee hoon) n every1 ate outta da fryin pans. dere was even a nail in 1 of dem. quite gross i noe, but dis is camp life man.... it's all abt roughin it out in da [almost] wilderness, mosquito infested area (hopefully no1 got dengue after dat).

later, da 'official' campfire nite. i was quite blur at dat time cos i was quite sleepy n it was rainin heavily. so, we were sheperded into da HQ (err... coronation's supposedly most sacred place) for shelter. i was like, wtv... i dun even noe wut i'm supposed 2 do in here n y we're waitin 4 so long. but luckily, i had te n guo qiang to tok 2 me. haha... we were actually havin a nice time tokin bad abt sum pesuruhjaya who kept askin every1 2 shaddup wif his bengis face (no other words can describe it, i'm afraid). den finally, as i was abt 2 faint from exaustion (dat, was an exaggeration, unfortunately)... da 'most' awaited VIP, or rather Very Late Person muncul at last. our vry own chief minister. yea, it u read today's newspaper, u wud hv seen de article abt us.

after 2 dreadfully, awfully looooonnnngg speeches abt guidin n scoutin friendships n da new campsite in teluk bahang... we sang negaraku. n den, suddenly, dere was a blackout!! we're tokkin complete darkness here. so lawak. i dunno how many ppl elbowed n grinned at me in da darkness. wen light was restored again, * big sigh* miraculously b4 da song ended... a guy glided down from da tree dey usually use 4 flyin fox (to dose who noe) n got tersangkut halfway. another lawak thing. n after dat, da fire lightin ceremony.

we went bac after HE left. n missed da dance competitions. wut lar... i heard da nxt day dat while sxi was dancin (mybeloved sub-camp) , da pfs-ians (1 HUGE group who came as helpers) laughed n jeered at dem. dat almost started a fight, or so i'm told. sad i missed all dat.

-1st day ends-

my last camp (not quite)

JOTA is over. *burstin into tears* i jz can't believe 3 days jz flew past. come bac.. i haven't had my fill yet!!! oh, n i'm jz missin every1 n everything dere. coronation camp, so many gd n bad memories i have had wif ya.... mostly sweet memories. ahh... dis times i will nvr 4get. n to think dat dis'll be my absolute last yr of attendin scoutin n guidin camps. n i'll nvr see coronation camp again!! cos da powers dat be r shiftin it 2 teluk bahang. ok, now i'm startin 2 tear. mz start tokkin abt gd times, n nt abt da future.

JOTA-JOTI 2005

camp log: day 1 (14-10-05)
time: 1430-2230
place: coronation camp (da 1 n onli)
ur reporter 4 da day: urs truly

i hurried home from sch to eat, bathe n prepare 4 camp. (o, wait, y am i even tellin dis?). after rushin around 2 get ready n pack my stuff, me n te were finally ready n wen off in ross's car. reached coronation at approx 1430 hours. haha... camp speakz... . we were wearin our full uniform (fgu) onli 2 find out dat we didn't hv 2. apala.... make me put in so much effort in wearin my belt onli... .

anyways... dere was ntg much dat we cud do yet cos we had 2 wait until a certain time to start buildin. so, we were jz sittin around n lookin 4 sumthin 2 do. dat was wen dere was a bit of a prob 4 dose who were nt combining wif sxi . a bit of a mix-up. n a huge mess which ended wif te screamin her head off n hackin every1 wif a parang. jz kiddin. but we, as da seniors kindda got quite heated up wif da sortin of da juniors. remind me nvr 2 bring juniors 2 camps ..ever.

n then, da time i was so waitin 4. tying gadgets. we were buggin our pl 2 let us tie eversince b4 da camp started n guess wut we got.... da disposal unit (d.u.) a.k.a tong sampah. but, it turned out quite well. it even had machanisme. like a real dustbin. almost all gal power.


-to be cont'd-

exams.... again. gIrl!e stuff...

exam's almost ova. more relaxed, less stressed but doubly worried. u muz think wut on earth is she tokkin abt? y worried? results....RESULTS!! dat's 10 times worse den actually doin da exam. i'll jz hope fer da best. i mean, dat's da most i can do. wut's done is done. i jz hope i dun fail fer physics (hate dat sub) n addmaths (ditto). i hate exams.

ahh... jz wait till after de exams... dere's so so much 2 do. FUN things i might add... dere's our all gal sleepova ( renee [nt my sis] wants 2 hv a 'real' sleepover, as in doin girly stuff like make-up lessons, ol' popcorn n movie... u noe, da like. i think it'll be fun ler, cos i've nvr been 2 anythin like dat b4. honestly, i can't wait... it jz sounds so girlish n a gr8 way 2 noe each otha better (n da seniors 2). i mean, i'm a gal n all dat n i'm proud dat i'm a female but make-up is jz beyond me. well, dere's no time like nw 2 learn... rite?