am supposed to be writing my essay on why i think tv should be banned. sighs. i don't want to think... i just want to do some mindless 'don't have to think' work. this is just me complaining so bear with me :)

so i was researching a bit on the effects of tv viewing and gosh... it made me want to throw my tv out and renounce watching it forever. which of course i didn't. haha. it did however, make me pace around the house for an hour or so trying to occupy myself to avoid switching it on. Unfortunately, i did in the end. hard to change the habits of a lifetime.

do you ever wonder why you feel slightly woozy and tired after watching tv for too long? that's because the tv screen has this sorta hypnotic effect on us; you know, the ever changing colours, the brightness of the screen... it just keeps our eyes focused on every movement shown on tv while subliminal messages play with our brain.


anyway, november's coming. which means camp's coming. and i can't wait! i wish i could just fastforward through all of nov and just reach camp. it's always such a bleak month filled with nothing but assignments and worse of all, no hols for me.

guess i should get back to my essay.

things i want to do

i'm finally free to blog. *exhultations of joy*


when i have no time to blog, i'm usually bombardered with dozens of topics to write(type) about. but then, i've been swimming in a mudpool of research and racism (assignment topic) the past few days so had no choice but to push all those thoughts away and concentrate on malcolm X. fiery feller he.

i don't want to be deep and meaningful because i know i can be deep so i don't have to prove to anyone that i can write deep and meaningful posts.

so lalalala~ airhead post.


things i want to do (wish i could do)

1. eat ice creams on cones and stroll along the streets
the ice cream'll probably melt once i get out of the shop, and drip all over my favourite tee but who cares! i have my ice cream, i'm happy. that's all that matters now.

2. watch a movie out in the open air. sorta like drive-in cinema

3. cook with my boyfriend.
ahahaha oops! was it too big a hint? i know i can't cook, but he can. so i'll be sous chef. good idea.

4. tutor english
i'm serious! lol. i like english and besides, i already do tutor some of my friends a bit in col. but if u say i look like a teacher i'll kick your head (if i can reach it).

5. tea party with the girls.
always talk about having one but never had the chance to. let's have jap themed tea party with sushi and everything. yeah culturally wrong and so against tradition but who cares. i'm not a jap.

6. feed the ducks
...or fish or birds os goats. providing they don't eat your hand first.

7. swim with dolphins

this is under the must do before i die list.

8. eat fried worms

i can't think of any more things i want to do at the moment besides those. eating worms ranks really high on my list now. anyone wants to join me?

i abhor facebook

shooting shlooting shot

i saw a rainbow yesterday... obviously it was pretty. i was pretty exhausted then but somehow things like rainbows or stars or lights in between clouds make me forget my tiredness, at least for awhile.

yesterday i did a good deed. umm no, i didn't donate to charity.

didn't feed the hungry children

no, it wasn't adopting a child from an impoverished third world nation either.

heh ok now i'm a bit embarassed.

actually i helped my seniors by acting in their psa (public service announcements, you know... "tak nak" and all that?). i mean, they asked me to ahem 'star' for them and i generously put aside my time for them. ok no, i was just kidding! i mean, yeah i did act for them but it was no biggie. i would like to say it was quite fun but... it was actually rather boring. the endless waiting for your turn, reshoot reshoot reshoot... never did like shooting. but then, it was a new experience. like the photoshoot last year. what's next huh? vj-ing? that'd be cool i think. we should try everything once in life right?

so the theme was wife abuse (i think!). and my small part was of the grown up version of the daughter of the family. you know... showing the effects of seeing your mom getting beaten by your dad in the long run. had to act all emo and sad and disturbed. which wasn't that hard cos i just had to look serious and dreamy and sad. i was so afriad i'd burst out laughing halfway while the camera was rolling. lol.

today's the crying scene. haih. i hate to fake-cry.

actually, i've come to realise that i have no passion for film. as in, in dramas, commercials and the sort. but i do like studio productions (talk shows and stuff) and theatrical stuff. it's more fast paced and exciting and less complicating to me. for film, it's "silence on set, camera rolling, action!..... cut!! retake". boring stuff. but in the studio, you usually get to do it once only. there's no screwing up... plus, i like to do stuff that doesn't require me to move around from place to place and work at odd hours.

i always like before and after pictures.

so this is ths studio before the "live"show

and during. made me feel christmassy for an hour. felt quite dejected when it was time to pack up and get back to september.

i have one gripe: everything's always always in chinese. sigh!

another 'us' picture

i'm on hols now. for only a week though. but still... hols are hols, even if it's only for 7 days and even if it's jam packed with work work and more work.

my mom says i dream too much. by dream she means daydream, being idealistically blur, floating on air... do i? well i guess i do, if my mom mentions it... haih. is it a bad thing? cos sometimes i just slip into my own world (this makes me sound like i'm mentally unstable doesn't it?) and i can amuse myself my own way. but then, sometimes my thoughts get so noisy, especially at night when i can't sleep.

reality is depressing sometimes. dreaming helps cushion it...

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first pic: denise in 'siok sendiri'

2nd pic: my sis. both pics taken with natural light. no photoshopping involved. but the pics are so wrong in a nice way. so nevermind.

3rd pic: erm hairband?

4th pic: during squash. oh gosh i look so messy.

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the sky cried a lot today. my col canteen banjir-ed. heheh. cool.

but i kinda like rainy days. for one, it's nice and cold, and secondly... it's nice and cold :)

even sara enjoys it.

so...

it's ntv7.

so most probably i'll do a 3 month internship there.

unless they for some reason reject me.

gosh, don't know what to think of it yet. but it's got me feeling excited already. so starting jan next month, i'll be in kl. so people in penang, i know you'll miss me... but i'll be back! (haha how cliche). i really hope i get sent to an english department. i mean... it's NOT an option to send me to a chinese one!!!


so i guess, i should start scouting around for prospective places to stay, church etc.



i have just one small question: where IS ntv7?

wednesday

was in col from 8 to 5 today.

on afterthought, maybe it wasn't that long after all.

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but after a long day of classes, and the humidity, made me a lil cranky.

hung out in the col gym room today. this is my second time there. the first was yesterday. haha.

in case you thought i had a sudden athletic fit, was kinda forced to go there. but to tell the truth, it's here, the athletic fit i mean. it's assignment time again, this time studio production; you know... talk shows, the martha steward show, bla bla bla...

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which is pretty fun. compared to filming drama.

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so we were in the gym room waiting for the studio to be opened for us to decorate. which made me a lot less cranky, especially once the fairy lights were turned on. so pretty! and you know me, i like pretty things :) my friend is pure genius. one of the few good things about today was ping pong. haha, i'm like not such a sporty person, but these few days, been very excited about sports. while this mania lasts... i'm glad.

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our theme is christmas.

you wouldn't believe how hard it is to look for christmassy stuff at this time. at first we didn't have a single thing. but now... we have more santa hats than we need, a santarina costume only a 5 year old could fit into, enough leaves to build us a small jungle (i wanted boughs of holly and pine tree branches. but didn't know how to explain it in chinese, so nevermind) and lotsa balls for decorations (still need more though).

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well anyway,

we go "live" on fri, yeah this fri... so if you can find the time, please keep my group in prayer (and that i won't lose my cool too. heheh. )

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next week: shooting for drama commences pulak. gosh! i need a break! please let me rest on raya....

tripping

i usually don't blog about my outings. but variety is the spice of life no?

anyway, be prepared le, cos this is image heavy, like ann ann says.

so early in the morning, i (the baik hati) went to fetch this person from his house.

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yea ME. denise ong.

i wasn't trying to be cute. REALLY! i was actually scratchin an itch and asking for the cam. gosh, what crooked arms i have.

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with him. mr world without strangers.

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we went to tropical fruit farm in erm, teluk bahang is it?

had fresh mixed fruit juice. what a nice pink!

and fruit ice kacang.

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ok so let's hear what the critics had to say...

i think he means "YUMMY!"

i give it a taste.

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and then the ants start coming.

it's my fault le. too sweet.

what??

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the toilets there are really one of a kind. very close to nature.

peeing with a view.

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well who goes to teluk bahang and not stop to take photos with the dam right?

sweet pic. heheh.

"peace i've been to teluk bahang dam"

he made me do it!!

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fast forward the ferry ride, highways... to the new Jusco! *da da da daa da daa* it's in BM by the way.

i was cranky with hunger. i know this looks far from cranky but just... imagine... ok?

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finally!!! the food...

fried rice for him... it doesn't look that appetising here, but it's pretty good.

and nissin noodles for her. not bad le. i mean, how different can maggi mee taste right?

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why so serious?

not any more...

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and of course...

need i say more?

haha.