waking up happy

this is the verse that gets me going most mornings when i feel just like crawling back to bed and snoozing for the next 2 hours.





"this is the day the Lord has made, we will rejoice and be glad in it" (psalm 118:24)





seriously, the power of words... i find that the more i confess positive words like that, i actually am feeling what i confess.

being happy with happy people

and it's so easy to not feel emo and moody when you confess positively over yourself. at least i did. as some of you know, or guessed it, or don't know... i have been really really down, angry, moody, emo, you name it; for... i think over a month. which is for me, a really really long time. cos i'm generally a happy person (at least i'd like to think that way). and so... yeah i was really unpleasant to be with at that time, always tired and so on.





but now... praise God, the tide has turned. erm, in other words... saya sudah tak emo lagi. it's like... i'm more emotionally stable now. which is very good. yeah, there're times when i could turn moody, but then, somehow i feel that i can choose not to be. i'm happy now. not the deliriously crazy kinda happy, but more of the quiet steady kinda happy.

yeah new specs new specs. so don't ask me if i got new specs.

umm yeah, me and you

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sometimes we get ".....?!?"

but most of the time we're " :) :) :) "

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i'm so blessed to have you, jootatt quah.

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God loves you, a lot of people love you, and i love you too

think green

hello.

yeah i'm still alive.

today's world environment day you know...

i don't know what's gotten into me, but i'm going to do my share to help it.

really!

i mean, hearing of global warming, animal extinctions, sungai pinang... doesn't it scare you?

you're gonna live a very uncomfortable WARM existence if you don't do something.

hey i know i'm not the world's most green person. okla, i hardly pass the green category at all considering all things (i have 2 fridges).

but reformed denise is here ok!

from now on, i'm gonna recycle, use less energy (electricity la...), try not to use plastic bags when i shop. oh, and i'm still working on this... bringing containers when buying takeout. it's the least i can do.

so far, i roped in my mom into this lil project cos she's all for conserving and preserving too. which is good. at least 2 can do more than 1. anyway, if my little contribution will help a bit, then what the heck, i'm all for it.

i am going to do it. so, remind me if i forget.

as for you, you can choose to laugh at me, or you can join me.

it doesn't matter.

if the ants can do it, you can too!

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oops?

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getting the hang of love

Love is not getting, but giving...

Not a wild dream of pleasure and a madness of desire.

It is goodness and honor and peace and pure living.

success! yea crappy title i know

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I is Happy

[insert smiley here]

radio production second assignment was a success. all the pek chek-ness and sacrifices were worth it. i'm glad. it's a nice feeling to be praised for a job well done. and honestly, i haven't been hearing that in ages. sometimes, a person just likes to be praised and appreciated ya know...

dj-ing is pretty fun. i like... for now.

i's happy

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sick sick sick sick sick of people.
i don't want to make new friends.
so sorry. if you're new, i don't wanna know you.
come to think of it... i don't mind making friends. just don't ask me to trust.

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too bad. trust is sacred.

i'll only save that for my dearest and closest now.

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please don't try to define me, or judge me... or analyse me. i'm not some mystical object you can label and classify. i'm complex, and difficult. you know what? i actually like being naive. at least then i don't get to see the 'wonders' of the world.



i'm not emo.

really really really really.

please la, like i wanna waste my time being emo on this.
*speck of microscopic dust*


oh and if you were wondering... i love my hottie and he loves me. no problems there. so really, you don't have to ask him what went wrong. cos we're absolutely fine. it's not about us anyway.

*really big wide genuine smile* .



i'm not being sarcastic.

happy

yes this is a boring blog whose owner doesn't bother to update all the time.

i refuse to bitch about my assignments.
i refuse to bitch about my lack of sleep (so i need lots of sleep to function. and your problem is...?)
i refuse to bitch about my tiredness.
or my moods.

yes i do have a mountain of neverending work.
yes i'm tired
yes i want to sleep more

but...

actually i'm fine.
haha.

1 week of hols next week. YES! and
i'm going for hillsong UNITED's concert!!!
*happy*

i don't know?

ok. so i really really should post something up.
thing is... i really don't know what.
then i realised- i really do not know lots of things.





like why do we work during vacations, and dream about vacations when we work?

or why we look forward to rainy days when it's hot and sunny, and then complain about the rain when it finally does?

why does the thing you've been wanting so very badly lose its appeal once you've got it?

why do we disregard something when we have it but miss it when it goes away?

why is it so easy to advice but so hard to be adviced?

if the grass is greener on the other side, why are we in such a hurry to go someplace else once we get there?







hmm... don't get me wrong. i'm not judging or finger-pointing at anyone. i'm just wondering... cos i struggle with these too. and these are just some questions i've been mulling over in my head these few days.



i realised that i haven't been out in the fresh air for some time. i haven't just sat on the grass just because. everyday i have something to do, some agenda to follow, deadlines to meet, people to please... again, don't get me wrong; i'm not here to complain, merely to state. everything in life is a tradeoff. everything is a choice. you trade your time for A in order to make time for B. simple economics of life.



as for me... i'm trading time spent listening to the soft crashing of waves, to "make something of myself " in life. sometimes you just gotta wonder... is it all worth it?

i don't know.

i guess i never will. what are my priorities? God, myself, my family, him, my friends... how does life fit in everything?

i don't know.

but what i would like is just one day of not planning, preparing, stressing, worrying... no appointments

just one day where i can be myself, just go with the flow. let me sit for as long as i want. close my eyes and breathe in deeply and just think... how great life is, and how thankful i am to be alive.

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just one day.

girlfriends

i really really miss my girls.

love you people.

sleepovers, shopping trips and makans the next time you girls come back.