softly sweetly

finally it's a friday...

one of the busiest, and most difficult week i've had so far this year. but i'm sure things'll pick up. pretty sure this is called the wilderness. lol

the good thing is, although God drives you in the wilderness and leaves you there to wander around for awhile, it doesn't last. i know i'm in this season of my life for a reason and i am very comforted that i don't have to face these things alone. ever realised that being in the wilderness is a very humbling experience? you are stripped down to the very core of your soul where at that very moment, the only one thing holding you together is your reliance on God's strength.

like i said, it has been a really tough week.

but i've also come to see that like the pot which has to be burned in the fire for a long time to avoid so that it will be tough and durable when it's used, i've found that i have some strength of character that i never knew i had. i've actually learnt so much more about myself and what or who i want to be through the heat. yes i've been burned and it was excruciating pain, but i feel like i will come off stronger, much stronger from this.

i know God's timing is never off. over the past two weeks, we have been doing a series on the Book of Ruth. and in a way, those sermons have been preparing my heart to deal with trials. Ruth is a quiet, simple and well written (my pastor says it's a very linguistically pleasing) story about God's faithfulness (and Ruth's too), and has always been one of my favourite books in the bible :D i don't really want to go into too much detail over the sermons but Ruth adamantly clinging to Naomi and her God, and without looking back on her past life... i am inspired by her. and the promise that one day God will send me a Boaz as well: honorable, influential, responsible, man of God (and he's rich too!)

anyway enough about that.

i've finished 2 courses already *huge sigh of relief*. it's really getting to me, i went to sleep last night spelling out my thoughts in transcription (which is the weird symbols you see in dictionaries fyi).

and i'm off to watch x-men later (can't wait!)

only one more paper to go next saturday and i'm free to be as idle as i want to. although i don't plan to be idle at all. just the thought that i can be if i wanted to is enough.