hallo

i shall not complain of being home all day
i shall not grumble about being bored
i shall not whine about everyone being too busy to accompany me around

because working is infinately worse.


i should really do something productive. oh oh... i know! i'll bake tomorrow. and i guess i should really get to finalizing my packing *sigh*. part of why i loathe packing (other than being the usual slothy me) is that it brings the reality of leaving so much more ... real. it's like the luggage bag's smirking at me "you're leaving! HAHAH! *sucker punch*". but i suppose i must stop procrastinating soon. real soon. otherwise i might end up packing on the flight to nz.


i'll let you in on a secret: i'm having cold feet. as departure begins to draw near, i'm having all these thoughts of "what ifs", and well, sadly a lot of them are less than positive. scared la. lol. funny. since not going was never an option, not that i was forced to go, no nothing like that. but because i just knew that one day i'd be going overseas. i am thankful, but you know, like the groom who sits in the toilet in cold sweat right before the wedding... i know like him, i'll be glad i had the courage to take this huge step. lol, anyway, it's just going overseas right? no biggie.


and i have this outrageously oversized card from the wonderful people of ignite to send me off. so sweet of them really. because i never in my life expected that! and it was really a wonderful surprise.


it's lovely to be loved and to love. i'm a big big fan of love.