i'm currently going through a modern family craze. have just finished watching all the episodes i can get off the hub for season 2.

and the more i watch it the more i feel like i resemble claire. i mean, if i were to grow up and become a housewife with a husband and 3 kids, i think there would be a high chance i would end up being like her. minus the "and five months later..., we were four months away from having our little bundle of joy" part. she's bossy, she runs the show, she a perfectionist, and she does a great job at most stuff. doesn't sound very flattering, but if you watched the show you would know better what i'm trying to get at. haha.

and though i didn't like phil (the husband) very much in the beginning of the show, i have a feeling i'll eventually end up with someone rather similar; spontaneous, easy going type of guy.

now i've got to find another series to follow. hmm any suggestions?

men...

this is going to be rather controversial. so i'm sorry if i stepped on any toes or hurt anyone directly or indirectly.


what happened to guys who actually respected women? what happened to men who saved their virginity for their wives? what happened to guys who made a conscious decision to keep their thought life and their physical conducts (especially with their girl friends) pure?

seriously, where are they?


i'm so tired of hearing those people who try to keep themselves from sexual sin being slammed as gays, or wusses. well guess what? it takes more strength to resist touching a woman in a way that compromises her self worth, than to just give in to temptation. and i know i probably don't understand as much being a girl (and having much less testosterone), but it is not impossible. it will be damn hard but it is NOT impossible.

i respect those men who make that commitment. i really do. it's not easy when everyone's doing it, and sex (or anything that is related) is just taken for granted.

it's not to say that girls don't have these temptations as well... trust me, they do. i know. but being with a partner who has strong principles does help a lot. and to me, the guy is usually the one who takes the lead in a relationship, hence if he leads by making a stand, i think the girl will find it easier to follow as well. that is, from my perspective of course.

and yes, girls should do all they can to help as well. like understanding the need for boundaries. and really making a firm decision not to compromise. which is tough. and although a lot of people are going to hate me for saying this, i suppose we should also watch what we wear. it's a proven fact that men are more visual... so yeah. i don't like it either, having to have to always watch what i wear, but if it'll help my brothers... then i guess i don't mind covering up a lil bit.

didn't want it to end up sounding preachy... but i really am sick of excuses saying that it's impossible to do this and do that.

when irritated just listen to the happiest song you can find. soothes the irritation a bit.

man i hate the feeling of unfinished business. and you always leave things hanging.
sigh sigh...

really don't like it when everything just gets swept under the carpet. really. don't. like. it.

christchurch memorial service

to mourn the loss of lives and land, and to remember the tragedy of the 22 Feb earthquake.

some pictures
(and in case you were wondering, yes that was prince william and hayley westenra)

some of my favourite things

blueberry muffins are awesome.

but i do believe i know something that trumps blueberry muffins. they are freshly (home)baked blueberry muffins which are fresh and hot from the oven, using fresh and juicy (real) blueberries. i just couldn't resist popping a few into my mouth while rinsing them. mmmm.


another awesome thing, is still getting gifts after my birthday :D :D



i love flowers! they just make me happy lol. i love them in a bouquet, i love them in a vase/jar/bottle, but most of all... i love them in their natural state; uncut and untarnished in the soil.

*GERAMS*

i hate being shouted at, especially when i did not do anything wrong.

grrrrrrrr

day after day

feels like i haven't been doing ANYTHING these past few weeks. days seemingly blend into each other and i'm losing track of time. just when chch is starting to get back on her feet, japan falls... and i heard the news on my birthday :S


but had a great bday nevertheless. had cake, gifts, makans... the works. even after all that's happened, earthquakes and disasters, it was still a very happy birthday. so blessed!


brunch




dinner





and i suppose... if not for the earthquake, i wouldn't have had a chance to visit melbourne this soon. seeing melb was always in the plan, but just couldn't find the right opportunity to go. to be honest, my heart was in christchurch the whole time i was there. but i did enjoy being there as well. food was awesome! oh the variety... the richness... the price! the best part was not really having a definite itinerary. we just went where we wanted, stopped wherever we fancied, ate whatever caught our eyes. good stuff. here are some photos which are also on fb, but what the heck, i'll put them up here as well.




on the brown yarra river. it was a very hot day and i had to carry too many things and listen to incessant chattering. not my finest moment. but i like the picture tho. haha.




leaving melbourne museum. i loved it in there (yes i am nerdy and i like museums), but i think the other 2 must've been pretty bored. oops!

number 2

things become more real when you know people who are directly affected by it.


even though i was in the city that the earthquake happened in,
even though i was in class and felt all the shakes and rumblings
even though it was my second time experiencing one

in a way, i was not directly affected by it.
why?
let me tell you why.


even though i was in the city that the earthquake happened in,
my area was one of the least hit places. most of the buildings were relatively unharmed by the quake.

even though i was in class and felt all the shakes and rumblings,
those shakes and rumblings were not strong enough to bring down any buildings on campus. so we were able to all get out of our classes and assemble in an open area without being trapped like a lot of people in town. just imagine if the uni buildings started caving in and crashing. there would have been a lot more casualties then.

even though it was my second time experiencing one,
i was still able to go home and find my stuff intact with only minor annoyances such as no power and water. but all that came back on in just a few hours.


so you see... i experienced the quake, but praise God i was delivered from any major harm.

but when you hear about friends and people you know, and how they've lost houses and have to live like a refugee at the school hall, it suddenly becomes so real. you know? and it's just really really heartbreaking to see the death toll rising on the news and reports on missing people. and also the lovely old buildings ruined. i really grieve to think of it.


it's times like this when you really need to grow up; i feel so much older already.


well, i guess i'll be updating here more when there is anything else to update.
christchurch is like a man who's gotten a really really severe beating and is lying flat out on the ground right now. but she will rise back up again. i know she will.

bad case of homesickess

and i was expecting the coming back to be easier cos it wasn't my first time anymore. but nooooo, i had to get it worse than the last time. sigh.

roots. so hard to pull them out once they take hold.