it's that time again

shooting is waiting waiting waiting waiting waiting wait.....

that's why we have time to do this

downsizing

i need to. learn how to love myself more.

i need to. grow up.

i need to. get some dignity.

i need to. keep my temper.

i need to. stop being a control freak.

i need to. smile more. i mean really smile.

i need to. let the small things go.

i need to. stop needing you so much.

aiyo so cute!

watch the pensel

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i got this from alarize who got it from a pastor back in singapore (i forgot who)

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to all guys... you are

"male by birth, man by choice"

so chun le.

no offense guys... hehe. didn't mean to tembak anyone. just thought i'd share this one sentence that speaks a hundred words.

photo album

i like looking at old pictures.

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even if it makes you want to forget that "that" was ever you.

can't believe i was ever that nerdy

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even if it brings back all the memories of "don't wanna friend you" etc

back in the days when i still did not have to wear specs

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even when the biggest problem in the world was not being chosen as class monitor

i seem to have a twin here

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it was a good childhood still. i have so many memories of playing at the yellow bars (cglians remember?), running along the corridors, falling down (i was a very clumsy kid), and climbing cupboards to hang up posters.

and i was so darn cute ler!

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and i am still ok!

just the idea of going to class the next day is stressful enough. i don't know why it's so tiring, it's not like i have too much work, i do but i think i can handle it. it's just that after classes i feel so drained i'm too tired to be happy i'm going home. and when i'm home i don't know who i can turn to. maybe i'm too demanding?

the thought of weekends gets me through the weekdays.

It's Good Friday

the day Jesus Christ died on the cross for us ungrateful people.

have been reading up on Luke chap 22 through til 24 just to get hyped up on Good Friday and Easter. I'm tired of just going for yet another Good Friday/Easter service. I want it to really mean something to me.

anyway blessed Good Friday & Easter people!

even if you don't know Him, God loves you.

* service at Masyarakat Penyayang tonight at 8. come!

:)

col starts tomorrow. on one hand... on the other hand... oh nevermind.

had an 8 hour marathon at hunza today... mostly playing the piano. but no complaints le. ok just one: pinkie pain. i'm rested and clean now so everything's good everything's nice :)

i'm nice

penang's just awesome la. i have things to do everyday, appointments, people around me... and i don't even have to beg for them to come hangout with me. well what to do la? happening mer. haha. yah i'm just kidding just kidding... would i be thaaat perasan? and i've already had most of the food i salivated over back there so tummy's satisfied, she's satisfied too. i wanna blog but somehow i can't. everything that comes out is nonsense. i mean, i'm just babbling now aren't i?


so i shall now talk about what i did during the week.


i guess you don't want to hear about where i hung out or what movies i watched right? (oh btw, i watched 'taken'. you should totally watch it! although it doesn't really make much sense... i mean, how can one man fight everyone? superman meh? but if I, the anti-action movie person says it's nice, it's probably good). anyway, the juicy parts... erm... i'm playing tambourine again. did you know i could? probably la. if i was asked to play for easter that means someone somewhere must've known. but what they didn't know was that i only learnt the basic-est of the basic steps, and that i haven't touched it in 5 years. yeah... since form 3. i only started searching for it hours before my first practise. oh no! but i like dancing le... so it's fun. although i'm the most behind one in the group.


and i was asked to act (yes again!) for my college promotional video. lol. i don't know why they keep asking me back, it's not like my acting's wow. and it would be nice if we had some money out of it. yeah... a lil extra income is always good. so basically, my job was just to look pretty *ahem* and act like a student, go out in cliques, point here and there... pretty much a keh leh feh role le. which suits me just fine. so far i've done one photoshoot and two 'appearances' in videos. good for putting into resumes i guess. but i just can't get over how round my face looked on those college brochures. where got so fat in real life???



here. i'll let you see it again. fat right? sigh... i don't even know who that girl in the brochure is honestly.








other than that, revival came back to ignite yay! i realised i've been doing the 'go to church because it's my habit, and besides my friends are there' thing lately. and it's as if everything is just so routine... but now i can smell change in the air. at least i know i want to change. this week has been a pretty tough week for me, and yet, i don't not wish that it didn't happen cos well... i'm learning to let go of the small things and focus on the bigger things. and other things also which i would rather not mention here. cos i'm lazy and i don't know how to explain and it's personal. like i told steph and ann ann, something needs to happen before you realise you need to change... or something along those lines. like how the soil is always much more fertile after a volcanic eruption. right right right?



oklah... enough babbling.
start putting random pictures (ok in this case, random picture) up. here's one...

waiting at subang jaya station. don't blame us... we were bored

welcome home

it's so good to be back. to a house that is noisy with people buzzing around... where i can be as messy and disgusting as i want to. and fat sara to disturb. hehe. yep it's good to be home.

so since i'm back, i'll give you a brief tour of my workplace. i can say anything i want now that i'm no longer there. hopefully i don't ever need to apply for a job there in the future. not that it's that bad... just not that keen le. anyway...

welcome to angkasapuri. remember to go to the guardhouse to get your visitor's pass before going in. and i hope you're wearing your good walking shoes cos it's a long climb up. yes, why do you think it's called BUKIT angkasapuri?

this is the building where i work in. wisma radio. also happens to be the oldest building there with the slowest lifts on earth. almost everyone uses the stairs here.

this is the humble office of TRAXX fm. we have a little roof where people go to smoke on. there's a huge no smoking sign and a poster of a deformed cancered body on the door leading to the roof, but i guess it's not working. too bad.

the traxxmobile. that's what they (i say they cos i'm no longer in it) bring out during roadtours. they have a huge flat screen tv and wii hooked up to it also. kinda cool la.

employee of the month. haha i wish. i'm just waiting for the train to take me home so no harm camwhoring to occupy my time right?

during one of our road tours in kl. these are some of the djs and my colleagues.

questionnaires... part of what i do there...

and this is our cute lil studio, or what we call conty. this is where the dj's go on air... actually, the place you see now is the producer's booth, the studio is further inside. sometimes i do delivery for my colleagues so i get to come down here quite a lot.

well my colleagues kinda threw me a farewell party on my last day of work. and one of the dj's cooked pasta for us (it was omg... superb! but still, no one makes better pasta than my mom. she's the best la). which made me feel a bit guilty because the whole time i was just hoping my internship there would end so i could just go home. oops! was that a lil too honest?

and oh i had this evaluation form which my supervisor had to fill in... you know... the 'has he/she been a good worker' form. under strengths and weaknesses... "she has helped a lot and showed great learning capabilities, but there is a lack of initiative.". omgosh... and i had the same thing on my std 2 report card. did i not change at all these, let me see... past 12 years? initiative? what is that?? initiative is lost on me laaa... haih... time to show some initiative! but no butt kissing. i draw the line at butt kissing. eek!

so goodbye kl! for now and i hope for always. i don't mind the occasional visits now and then but staying with you is kind of a pain. come to think of it, i quite enjoy my power walks everyday there. if only there was someone to accompany me and without the constant threat of muggers. at least it made me feel healthier (if only in my head) for once, instead of the skinny slob of potato i'm going to become again back home. i need to get some exercise here (but lazy). but when all's said and done, i'm glad to be home.

pre goodbye

it's my last week here and i'm determined to make it my best week.


so far, the week has started off pretty. well, if you on't count me getting sick on sunday that is. yesterday was quite a quiet and relaxing day, i got to leave early as well. then this morning i had a ride to the station. i usually have to walk on tues, thurs and fri... so it's really a blessing that i didn't have to today.


and i saw a rainbow!

justin: oh look! rainbow!
denise: *blur* huh? what?
justin: rainbow
denise: oh ooh... but i can only see one side of it...
(trust me to have one but)


and i got my size 5 and 1/2 feet stepped on about 3 times on the train. it's my feet k... not the floor... notice the difference. oh that was just nonsense le, i just wanted to add that in. heheh.


i can't wait for my family to come down on thurs and courier me home on sat. yes SATURDAY! so expect to see me on penang soil by then. i can't decide what i want to eat first once i'm back on food paradise... shall i have... char kuey teow? chicken rice? laksa? lok lok? satay? pork sausage? roasted chicken wings? pasta? crap i'm getting hungry. everything in penang is good le... i don't know why, but it just is. even the "oklah... so so" food is better than the food here. kl people label me a food snob and whenever i say that i'm from penang, they'll all nod and give me that understanding look. oh well. i'm just used to good food, that's all.

but i will be missing some food here. some only... wendy's, burger king, carl's jr and the fantabulicious swedish meatballs from ikea. having a bad craving for swedish meatballs now (note to self: must get parents to tapau that for me if they happen to go there).